We speak often of finding a connection to who you truly are. To some people this may be clear, for they have felt and expressed this self at many different times in their life. To others this may sound like gibberish, never having sensed it or felt it at all. But none of that really matters. The main thing that matters is to realize that you are more than a physical being with a brain, a body, and a pile of thoughts and emotions. You are a spiritual being with spiritual energy that far exceeds anything you can experience in the substance that you call your physical body. Your spiritual self has been trying to get you to understand this, to see this in the little and big nudges it gives you every day of your life, in the little and big saves it has performed on you, in the little and big thoughts it has superimposed over your habitual thoughts. Start to get curious about the possibility that what we are saying is true. Open your heart and your mind to something greater, not greater than you, but to the greater you that you truly are!
Spirit and Matter are inseparably One. Yang, the creative, finds its physical expression in Yin, the receptive. In this moment, as I write, a son of mine texts me that while driving his car last night the word star unthinkingly escaped his lips, and suddenly, a falling star appeared before him!
Every word we say, positive or negative, is spirit, which is then physically expressed, like my son’s falling star. The star is the radiant spirit of pure truth, expressed through the matter of the star, the anima mundi, or the soul, of the world.
Everything that happens in our lives is of divine origin, that divinity being both the mental thought and the subconscious substance that brings it to physical life. We might indeed object to the suggestion that we intend negative events in our lives. In fact, we might argue that we consciously intend only positive occurrences. Yet, we must face the fact that like attracts like, and only what we attract will materialize in our lives.
This brings us to the question, when things materialize not as we intend, “What is the matter with me?” The matter, of course, is what we physically manifest.
If we begin by suspending the judgment of blame and instead assume the innocence of Dorothy, in the Wizard of Oz, we next pull back the curtain within and identify the true wizard/spirit behind our current manifestation in matter.
Very often, we may then discover that a very old thought that we have long forgotten has taken up residence in the habit section of our subconscious mind, and continues to automatically shape our physical lives according to the instructions imbedded in its belief.
This now unconscious belief acts as interference to the conscious suggestion we are currently seeking to manifest in our lives. Once we are aware of this blocking belief, we become enabled to defy it!
One approach to defiance is to engage the old belief and express gratitude to it for its necessary role in our past, when it shaped our reality to best protect us and secure our growth, however constricted. This belief is then awakened to the changed circumstances of now, where we are ready to advance beyond an old construction of self into new vistas of creative fulfillment.
This approach may neutralize the energy of the blocking belief, which now excitedly joins in the present suggestion of change to the subconscious mind. However, if it remains reticent to change, the conscious mind might aggressively flood the subconscious mind with emotionally charged positive suggestions that, once the energy accrues to the necessary level, causes the subconscious mind to abandon the old habit and manifest the new.
Beyond the issue of blocking belief, is a more basic relationship issue, what I call the Gemini Challenge, as Geminis foundationally confront reconciling polarities, particularly the ultimate relationship between spirit and matter. This is, of course, a challenge presented to all of humankind, but for Geminis this may be the central challenge of a lifetime.
If we favor the spirit personality in the fundamental bipolar oneness of spirit and body, we tend to be dominated by mind, and can tend to live outside the body, in illusory states of inflation or, at the opposite extreme, in deflated states of mental rumination. At times this can devolve into a state of intense mental cruelty, where the spirit weeps for its supposed failures in physical form.
When identified more with the material side of the dual personality, we might be drawn into obsession with physical concerns, or imagined limitations generated by spirit thought. These, of course, are very likely to physically manifest, as body is governed by thought. The Gemini challenge is heightened by, at times, abrupt shifts to opposite perspectives that question what is real and right.
The resolution to this unsettling marital relationship between mind and body lies in mutual respect and equanimity. Spirit is not superior to body; they are full equals, reflections of each other. Matter exists and is real, even if it is ultimately but an interpretation of energy. Beneath a solid interpretation of matter is simply free-flowing energy, without definition. Divinity is dormant if it can’t be experienced in the adventure of form.
The answer to the question, “What is the matter with me?” is ultimately the question of, “What spirit am I manifesting?” If I am under-appreciating or negative toward either my spirit or physical self, I will constellate the spirit of aggression and the matter of an inner civil war.
If I direct my spirit’s attention outwardly, toward the star, and engage my spirit for the greater good of self and other, my physical manifestations will happily reflect such love, for self and other. The matter with me is then confidence, contentment, and fulfillment in the full radiance of physical form.
When darkness comes, remember that it is always followed by light, just as night is followed by a new day. Keep this in mind as you fathom what is going on in the world you live in, as you ponder how best to respond and as you face your fears of global collapse and universal war. Keep also in mind that there is another side to everything. Just as there is light following dark, there is also that which you can see clearly in the light of day and that which you cannot see at all in the dark but you know exists nonetheless. Spirit reality exists simultaneously with human physical reality and both aspects are alive and well and working together. You may not always be aware of this, but your dreams show you how they communicate and how they interact, bringing you what you need to learn and face. Stay connected to this truth, that spirit and matter are two sides of one thing, your human self.
Thoughts issue from the mental or spiritual plane of our being. Our mind, or spirit, is located in our energy body, or soul, and is intimately connected to, and oversees, all the operations of the physical body. Thoughts have an energetic momentum that profoundly influences our physical body.
Our ego mind, though actually of spirit origin, is so deeply identified with the material world, that it simply cannot believe in the primacy of spirit behind physical life. To entertain this spiritual perspective, as suggested in this blog, suspend temporarily the judgment of the material mind view and open to an insinuation of spirit from your higher mind.
The world is so reflecting to us at this time how rapidly changing thoughts are dismantling and reshaping our material reality. Long held medical, environmental and economic beliefs and truisms are being eliminated with the stroke of a pen. This is a grand scale example of how the force of a spirit, as exercised through thoughts, is reshaping our material world.
The big question is how the material world will carry and sustain the demands of these radically demanding thoughts. As individuals we are equally challenged to contend with the impact of our own thoughts upon our physical bodies.
Spirits choose to enter an earthly life to test out their thoughts in a material playing field. Choice of family and physical circumstance provide the materials to mold a physical life to embody the thoughts it seeks deeply to explore through a human life. Our physical lives are thus our spirit’s laboratory for discovery and growth. Spirits may actually need a physical life to advance in their more subtle dimensions of existence.
For a spirit who lacks the experience of emotional attachment and the maturation and refinement of love needed to advance on its spiritual plane of existence, an earthly life in time, space and the dense energy of physical relationships can provide all the necessary materials for advancement.
As a spirit works its way through the developmental stages to mature love in physical form, it will materialize or attract to it a plethora of relationship experiences to refine its experience of love and relationship from its crudest to its most sublime form. This subtle energetic achievement of refined love will allow it to deepen its spiritual horizons in infinity.
Of course the truth is that we need spirit to advance our life in physical form as well. Spirit, or the mind, generates the thoughts whose substance builds the body. Yes, we build muscle and physical skill through physical exercise and repetition, but we equally generate those physical results through their repetition in the imagination. This is the action of suggestion from the conscious to the subconscious mind. It is the subconscious mind that materializes spirit intent.
Not only are our bodies shaped by our own thoughts but also by the thoughts of others who are attracted to our thoughts and moods. If we are burdened with our own negative thoughts and absorb the negative thoughts of others, our bodies, the physical representatives of those thoughts, will reflect the weight of those burdens upon our slumped shoulders and the sad, depressed feelings impressed upon our wrinkled brows.
In order to replenish our bodies we must allow for new thoughts to saturate our minds. May these new thoughts be for the greater good of self and other. Like attracts like. When we bathe in positive, loving thought, we magnetize our energy to draw to us people, circumstances and outside thoughts that reflect our state of mind. This also has the effect of detaching us from others whom we may have attracted from our prior negativity. Thoughts, people and spirit entities drop away when they find no sustenance in our current positive thinking.
Of course, we must contend with the ruts of old thoughts that have been habitually stored in the automatic functioning of the subconscious mind. These habits are the triggers associated with old thoughts. The good news is that the subconscious is always open to suggestions in the form of spirited new thoughts.
However, before the subconscious abandons an old directive it will test your resolve and patience through seeing your reaction to old triggers. Don’t get caught. Prove your sincerity. Firmly tell the old thought to get lost, but most importantly, emphatically and often, state the new thought. And then, with unswerving faith in the power of one’s new thought, calmly follow its yellow brick road to completion.
Try this one: My body reflects my spirit. My spirit is completely healthy, wealthy and wise. My deepest spiritual desires are realized in human form. Everything is possible.
Stop having to stop anything. We get hooked on this materialist imperative for the obvious reason that our senses provide a constant barrage of physical impressions that dominate our attention and mental consideration. We are led to believe that if we are to improve our lot we must change something physically.
In this scenario, our spirit, in its ego form, takes charge and insists upon a new schedule of defined behaviors that will advance it toward its goal. Inevitably there is habitual resistance toward this stated intent, but ego basks in the power of its determination as it pushes through.
The shadow of resistance might lie dormant as ego flexes its muscle, but inevitably there is a coup that overthrows the best of ego intentions. Ego intent is no match for desire. The fire of desire will reign supreme until the fuel that feeds it runs out. That fuel is the spirit of the lower mind that is identified with the denser energy of the physical body, as well as all things physical. Its battle cry is, generally, “More!”
It may be that we want desperately to truly change a behavior and, in fact, must to stay healthy. But in order to achieve this in a sustained way, the change must come at the level of spirit, not from efforts directed at the physical plane, which ultimately terminate in defeat.
The needed change is the refinement of the spirit of desire that issues from the lower self of the physical body and ultimately rises to the higher Spirit self that resides, in the transparency of truth, at the immortal dimension of our being. We experience that elevated dimension from the truth of our heart, the clarity of our intuition, and in our partnership with the divinity of all that is through the portal of our subconscious mind.
To avail itself of the power of this divine relationship, ego does well to focus its attention on suggestions to its subconscious mind, rather than focus on new rules for physical behavior. In this scenario, an influx of spirit energy from a higher plane of self is released to effect a greater spiritualization, at the coarser plane of the physical body.
Specifically, the ego could ask the subconscious mind to lift its desire for a particular behavior, and transform its energy into a changed expression for the greater good of self and other. How might such a transformation feel?
Say, for example one was dealing with a sexual addiction. Under the compulsion of such desire, one spends most of one’s day trying to secure objects to serve as a release for this desire. These casual hookups have no connection except the mutual desire for sexual release. Sexual desire at this level is at its coarsest—physical contact for physical release.
If one were to strongly and consistently demand that the subconscious engage its energies to lift this compulsion, the first effect might be the experience of a reduced actual desire, or physical neutrality, at exposure to a possible object for release. What one then confronts is more the old habit of thought of desire, but not actually the compulsion itself.
In this scenario, the ego is charged to make the choice to accept this gift of grace, and not purposely try to activate the desire for habit’s sake. The ego is asked to be the adult that has been provided with grace by its Higher Self and choose to stay in the peace of this actual moment. This is not a new rule, it’s simply being where you actually are in that moment. Ancient habits may require many rounds in this choiceful cycle.
The actual spiritual lifting of this coarser sexual desire might ultimately refine it into the experience of true loving connection and cherished sexual union in a committed partnership, with a true soulmate, versus mere release with an indiscriminate playmate.
Obviously, these transformative stages are relevant to the refinement of all compulsive desires. These might include food, wardrobe, substances, perfection, negativity, the getting of attention, rage, self-importance—the list is endless. Life in human form is life in the refinement of spirit, from the coarser to the finer, the ticket for spiritual adventure and advance.
The technology for this advancement rests in spirit relationship. This includes spirit at the physical level, spirit at the mental level of the ego, and spirit at the level of the divine in the relationship between the conscious and subconscious minds.
Forget approaching change with a new set of rules for the body. Get instead to the spiritual heart of the matter. With love and demand, ask and you shall receive. Be receptive to grace as it arrives as it will, every day, in some way.
An equanimity mantra from Jan, said slowly, with emphasis on “I am”:
I am at peace.
I am at peace.
Within and without,
I am at peace.
