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Soulbyte for Tuesday September 29, 2020

Meditate within the inner sanctum of self to reconnect to that which is honest and true, to the true needs of the self and other, beyond the antics of those who seek to dominate and control with outlandish tales and self-aggrandizements. Find solace within where the heart knows what is necessary, where loving kindness and compassion may stir so that peace and calmness may once again be at home. Find solace within the inner sanctum of self. As within, so without.

Sending you love,

The Soul Sisters, Jan & Jeanne

Soulbyte for Monday September 28, 2020

Use your power to send heart centered loving kindness to a world in chaos, to those who suffer and to those in need. Where there is chaos, the assembling of positive energy and positive intentions may provide a gentle buffer so that life may proceed without further suffering. Heart centered intent is powerful intent. Goodness and kindness are powerful energies and, along with love and compassion, cost nothing to distribute, require no effort other than positive thoughts, feelings, and emotions. Stir up some positivity for self and other and see what happens. You can’t go wrong with a little loving kindness.

Sending you love,

The Soul Sisters, Jan & Jeanne

Soulbyte for Friday September 25, 2020

Maintain stability. Equalize body, mind, and spirit so that all are in alignment with the heart’s intent, that of loving kindness and compassion. Maintain stability in action and deed, as well as in spirit, for one stable person may create stability in the world simply by example. Withdraw from that which is unstable, unsound, unreasonable and unkind. Engage in that which is right, good, positive and loving. Keep heart, mind, and body aligned with what is right for all and all will be well. A stable person is a blessing indeed in times of duress. Be that one stable being so that peace and calmness may once again have its day.

Sending you love,

The Soul Sisters, Jan & Jeanne

Soulbyte for Thursday September 24, 2020

It’s all a dream, a collective dream, already dreamed a long time ago and now being unfolded in real time. Dream on, knowing that you’ve already dreamed it, that you’ve already decided the outcome, already solved the issues, already experienced the nuances and details of this collective world dream you are currently dreaming. There’s no stopping it, for it is already done, planned a long time ago. Dream on with awareness now, making right decisions based on the knowledge of the loving heart behind it all, knowing that you are one, the dream and the dreamer too. One is all and all is one.

Sending you love,

The Soul Sisters, Jan & Jeanne

An Excerpt From “Dreaming All The Time”

Here is an excerpt from the next book in The Recapitulation Diaries. I am a few months away from finishing the recapitulation. If you’ve been following my experiences and reading my books you might remember it was a three-year-long journey of intense inner work. As the third year was nearing its end, the recapitulation intensified, my old self and my old world attachments not willing to give up so easily. As they say, it’s always darkest before dawn. Here is the excerpt:

February 4, 2004

I wake in a panic at six a.m., mind and body vibrating so hard I fear that I’m shattering, breaking apart into a million tiny pieces, turning to dust between the covers of my bed. Why now, when I’ve worked so hard to bring myself together? I breathe and breathe and breathe, willing myself back together with every breath I take. Pushing the panic away, I remind myself of why I’m doing this recapitulation: for life, for wholeness, for oneness, for the joining of my two souls. And then I remember that I woke in the night in fiery pain! I cried, calling out, “Sorry, sorry, sorry,” whimpering as the pain tore through me. Gradually the pain stopped and I fell back to sleep. It was like a bad dream, but it was no dream at all; it was an old memory searing through me.

Why am I still suffering such pain? What is the point of it? And why did I feel I had to apologize? I was the one in pain and yet I felt I had to apologize, and for some crazy reason it worked, it made the pain go away. Now I lie still, just breathing, turning myself over to the safe hands of my guides, knowing that they won’t let me die. It’s not my time. It’s time now to finish this healing journey.

Eventually, I’m able to move my body and get out of bed. If I can just get through the next few days and months, I’ll be fine, I tell myself. I make coffee and set my sights on the day ahead. I have a meeting with an outdoor art committee, an article to write, an illustration to do, and a decorative painting job to start, so all of that will keep me busy. The key is to remain busy.

To whom was I apologizing last night? To the abuser? It felt as if I were apologizing to him for killing him off, for having to commit this act of war against him, for we are at war as I seek to take back my energy. Or perhaps I was apologizing to my inner girls because we are leaving those old familiar places of pain and comfort, of fear and depression, where everything is so known and predictable, and so strangely safe. It’s striking how pain and comfort are so terribly linked. But the apology worked, the pain eased, and I fell easily back to sleep.

“Something wants you to go back,” Chuck said to me yesterday. “Do the movements [Magical Passes] to counter it. Every time you go through a major shift something wants to pull you back. Fight it.”

Everything is shifting and changing now and I’m feeling the full brunt of it, a head-on collision of the old and the new.

© 2020 J. E. Ketchel, Dreaming All The Time, Volume 5 of The Recapitulation Diaries