#609 Chuck’s Place: I Am a Being Unfamiliar to Myself: Removing the Tent of Intent

Welcome to Chuck’s Place, where Chuck Ketchel expresses his thoughts, insights, and experiences! Many of the shamanic and psychological terms used in Chuck’s essays are defined in Tools & Definitions on our Psychotherapy website.

Several years ago, at a Tensegrity training in Barcelona we, the practitioners, were assigned to answer, in writing, the question: “Who am I?”. I was sure I had the correct sorcery definition of self: “I am a being who is going to die.” The truth was, however, that I was a being in hiding, terrified to speak a word in this foreign land. My high school Spanish blended with my college German to form a “foreign language,” the same language that comes to me whether in a Spanish speaking or German speaking country. To avoid humiliation my self-importance chose to become mute. In one store I opened my shaking hands filled with change, holding them like a beggar, while the disdainful shopkeeper picked out the appropriate coins for payment of my purchase. In this moment, the tent of my intent was the cloak of the beggar, embodying my fear and shame.

Jan and Jeanne, in Message #606 The Mystery and Magic of Intent, explored the notion of identifying the intent we are attached to and learning to free ourselves from being bound by that intent. Our personal intent creates a tent around us that embodies that intent; we physically become that intent. In Jan’s dream, Carlos Castaneda introduced her to a magical pass to remove this tent of intent as follows:

Removing The Tent of Intent Magical Pass: Imagine that a sheet is draped over your head and your intent is to remove it. Stand with legs slightly bent at the knees, feet comfortably apart. Bending the left arm at the elbow, palm facing up, raise it to the side of the head above the left ear even with the top of the head, elbow pointing straight ahead. Breathing in, hook the sheet with curled fingers and gracefully push it away, with a definite and forceful exhalation, in a downward sweep out to the left, which then rises in a wavelike gesture away from the body ending with left arm fully extended at shoulder level, fingers pointing to the side and palm back. Return arm to left side. Do this on the right side as well. Repeat at least three times.

In shamanistic terms, when we remove the tent of intent we allow for a shift in the assemblage point, a ball of awareness on our luminous body that, depending upon its position, determines how we interpret who we are and the world we live in. However slight that shift, we become a being unfamiliar to ourselves. With that shift our body changes, our thoughts change, our feelings change, our “issues” change, time changes. We step out of the familiar into new possibility, perhaps for a moment, like a deja vu experience, or permanently, a new being.

Sorcerers have many techniques to remove the tent of intent. They propose that the number one reason we remain familiar, ad nauseam, to ourselves, is our incessant internal dialogue that constantly tells us what we think, what we feel, who we are, and how to act, which we then obligingly manifest in our bodies. This creates the tent of our intent. Shamans would argue that we unconsciously perform self-hypnosis all the time to maintain a consistently familiar sense of self. One exception is in dreaming where the tent of our intent is automatically lifted as the assemblage point is dislodged from its habitual position. This is why shamans place a premium on learning The Art of Dreaming, taught in Carlos Castaneda’s book of the same name. To counter the incessant internal dialogue shamans employ practices to achieve a state of Inner Silence. A set of magical passes for inner silence can be found in Carlos Castaneda’s book Magical Passes.

Another sorcery method to remove the tent of intent is the practice of Not Doings. Not doings are behaviors individually selected to interrupt the energetic flow of habitual patterns. For instance, wearing two different shoes, two different socks, underwear turned backwards, or creating an OCD ritual for a day all serve to disrupt the typical self-hypnotic suggestions that we normally operate under to embody our familiar sense of self. Sorcerers embark on more extended not doings in a practice they call Stalking, where they literally embody the habits and behaviors of an unfamiliar personality, freeing themselves from their familiar selves, going so far as to actually change their names and live as new characters, a kind of improvisation gone semi-permanent. This volitional interruption of the habitual energetic flow of the self develops the ability to fluidly remove one’s tent of intent. I would add to these practices the use of conscious self-hypnosis to disrupt the flow of unconscious self-hypnosis. Create your personal mantra, state it incessantly, like saying an unending rosary. Watch what happens!

Shamans and physicists tell us that all things are connected. The thesis of The Holographic Universe, as presented by Michael Talbot in his book of the same name, suggests that infinity exists, all things exist, in every grain of sand. Everything that exists, exists in you and in me. What is it then that gives us definition, our tent of intent? I believe don Juan’s answer to this question would be our predilection, our personal preferences. In other words, what tent of intent do we choose, perhaps forsaking all others, though with fluidity we have access to them all. If we are able to remove the tent of intent we are free to explore and embody infinite possibility, or simply change.

If today I were asked the same question that was posed in Barcelona (Who am I?) my response would be: I am a being intent upon becoming unfamiliar to myself, intent upon removing the tent of intent.

As always, should anyone wish to write, I can be reached at: chuck@riverwalkerpress.com or feel free to post a comment.

Until we meet again,
Chuck

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#608 Step Outside of Your Comfort Zone

Jeanne Marie Ketchel
Channeled by Jan Ketchel

Dear Jeanne,
What guidance do you have for us today?

I am inclined to remind you to always gauge your selves within the context of a greater picture. You are important, your issues and challenges must be met in order to evolve, your work on the self must continue in order for your personal growth. These things are certain or you will not evolve, but I must remind you to occasionally pull your head up out of the water and look around you. Take in some deep breaths of fresh air and re-establish your direction by the points on your horizon, taking in how far you have come and how much you have accomplished before heading back into the waters of your unconscious. Your inner work must always be balanced by the reality of your life upon that earth.

Your practice in personal growth must include a pragmatic outlook upon your reality, for too much inner work without fresh air may keep you bound to issues that could have been resolved a long time ago. Do not be afraid to seek options, opinions, and outlooks that are not immediately comfortable to you. In asking the self to step outside of your comfort zone you offer the self an opportunity to not only shift, but to make some progress. In constantly swimming around in circles or running the same laps over and over again one may gain in strength and conviction but fail to offer the self any new ideas, fresh perspectives, or interesting points of view.

I suggest that now is a good time to introduce some changes into your routine, to do something that you have long contemplated but feared doing. It is time to push the self beyond the established and controlled practice that, though innerly focused, may not be getting you to a new level. The point of inner work is not the practice itself, but the opportunity to evolve.

I ask you all to question the progress you are making. Is it progress, or are you swimming in circles? Is it time to come up for air; to grab a towel, step out of the water and sit upon the shore for a while, determining where you have gotten to? Is it time to swim in a new direction based on the strengths gained by your hard work on the self? Is it time to seek advice from a source outside of the self?

It is time to push beyond your comforts, beyond your established routines, to do something different for the self. Even a well-established and deep inner practice can become routine, stagnant, and boringly known, a rut that does not offer any new insights though it may be a practice rooted in growth and with evolutionary potential. Push your selves beyond your limitations; let in some thing new; challenge the self in some fashion that is growth-oriented, enlightening, and non-judgmental; be open to change without bias or control. Be completely open. Flow and float awhile upon the surface of your life, sit upon the shore and see what comes along to show you what this new aspect of growth might be. Dare the self to remain open while at the same time pushing the self to act upon the right next move, based on what you know you need.

And how do you know what you need? Feel, test, and wait for more signs. They will arrive to show you that you are on the right track or that, no, this is not right. You must also question your sense of comfortability, for often being comfortable in a new situation is showing you that you are not being challenged, while uncomfortability is asking you to take on a challenge because it is so right for you. Decisions must be based on what your true challenges are, and that is where your inner work comes in to guide you. What are your most basic truths and your most basic challenges based on those truths? Fear often lies at the bottom of all issues within the self. I leave you with the suggestion to confront your fears. They will lead you where you truly do need to go next.

#607 A Journeyer Understands Consequences of Actions

Jeanne Marie Ketchel
Channeled by Jan Ketchel

Dear Jeanne,
What are you going to talk about today?

Today is a good day to talk about the consequences of actions taken.

What do you mean by that?

By this I mean that one must be ready to take full responsibility for making a decision and acting upon it in order to grow. Maturity is not simply achieved by state of age or position in life. One must earn it by accepting full responsibility for the self and the consequences of one’s actions.

Only in learning the lessons of being responsible may you truly evolve into a mature person, by owning the fact that you alone are to blame for the unfolding of your life, by the choices made, whether conscious or unconscious. By using the word blame I do not do so in a judgmental manner, but as a fact of life that all choices eventually trickle back to the person who has enacted them. All choices must be seen as actions taken by the unknown self to guide you to your issues and challenges.

There is no blame, regret, or denial that will absolve you of your need to grow. You see? Every step in your life is of great consequence. Every action taken and every choice you make is a true fact of your life. Each step you take leads you where you need to go, whether others are involved or not. By making these statements regarding ownership of action, I wish to entice you to a greater acceptance of the self as a journeyer.

A journeyer accepts every tiny step along the journey simply because he knows that he has elected to take a journey and that a journey entails adventure. It entails meeting, conflict, taking chances, using quick thinking, wittiness, sharpness, and decision making, often without much time for forethought. A journeyer knows that all actions will have consequences. As he travels he knows that he has only himself to rely on and that if he fails he has only himself to blame. As I stated, such blame is without judgment; it is simply a fact.

As a journeyer travels his path he knows that he is responsible for every action, yet he also knows that each step opens him to new opportunities and new adventures bearing new choices. A journeyer leads a life of action. In taking full responsibility for himself, and each action, he also must learn to accept full responsibility for the consequences of each step and each action taken. This is a process that may take some time to fully embrace and own, but all must do so in order to evolve.

In accepting the self as a true journeyer, life becomes an adventure of hope, of options, of self-determination to fully take the journey that will lead to wholeness of self in the outer world and in the inner world. Today I speak of learning what it means to take full responsibility for decisions acted upon.

I suggest that consequences be assessed and that outcomes be satisfactory to the evolving self. Many decisions are made in fear. In fact, most decisions have fear hovering in the background somewhere, so that often they are not made based on inner truth, but on outer realities that are so far removed from inner knowing that they have no connection whatsoever to a spiritually evolving life.

Take the consequences of the decision to go to war, for instance. This involves the potential to kill and be killed. Is such a decision based in spiritual evolutionary awareness and tactics, based in the truth of energy, in the truth of energetic sameness of all beings? No, it is not. Treat all of your decisions as if you were deciding whether or not to go to war. Is the war worth it? Is the choice made going to lead to more war? Is the choice you are attempting to make based on the fact that you are an energetic being living a life of spiritual growth?

Think first: I am energy. Then decide: What is the best move to make for an energy being who is seeking fulfillment of this life being lived now? Perhaps your perspective on your life situation may change as you allow your inner work to become part of every decision you make. Perhaps your choices may begin to be based in mature thinking, knowing that you are choosing to lead your life along an evolutionary path. Perhaps your journey may begin to lose some of the old fears as you accept each challenge in your life as perfectly set up for you to make a choice that will further move you along your evolutionary path.

Consider your choices based on your past, but also on your future. Consider your choices based on your immediate place in life as well. Consider your choices as a maturing energy being, fully responsible for your life. Determine, each day, what you would like that life to look like. Consider your actions and ask the self: What am I offering my self today by making this decision to proceed along my path in this manner? Is there another option that is better for my evolving spirit self? Am I ready to own my choices, to be fully responsible for the consequences of my decisions? Am I making my choice based on fear and hearsay, based on truth or lies, based on heart or head? What is the truth of the reality I live in, and where is the best place to go next in my life? What are the inevitable, known consequences of my decisions, and am I ready to own those as well?

Turn inward and ask the mature self to meet the adventuring spirit self each day in balance, in action, in taking responsibility, and in growing. This is all you need to develop an understanding of your life as it has thus far been lived and as it has yet to be known. Good Luck as you take your next step, My Evolutionary Beings!

#606 The Mystery & Magic of Intent

Jeanne Marie Ketchel
Channeled by Jan Ketchel

Dear Jeanne,
I had a hard time falling asleep last night and in an attempt to settle my thoughts I focused on setting a dreaming intent. Eventually, I fell asleep and dreamed about intent itself. Carlos Castaneda came into my dream and explained that the idea of setting an intent becomes like a tent that gets in the way of accessing intent, telling me that I must leave my fear of intent behind in order to access intent. He showed me a magical pass to push away my “tent of intent,” first to the left, then to the right in order to access the true energy of intent. He said: “You must leave intent behind so you can go forward into intent.” I take this to mean that by focusing so intently on setting an intent I am in fact blocking access to the energy of intent, which I understand already exists. How do we set an intent to access intent without getting stuck in the asking? How do we simply allow ourselves to be open to the magic and adventure of our lives without trying to control what we get?

My Dear One, though one is often fearful during a lifetime the greatest gift one can give the self is the gift of innocence. This involves allowing the self to be vulnerable, open to that which comes, yet also open to that which cannot come into one’s life if one does not allow the self to be vulnerable.

If you, My Dear Readers, are interested in growing you must allow access to the innocent and vulnerable self, the soft self, the ethereal self. This self is many-faceted. This self is complex. This self is most necessary to understand and tend to, to expose to the self, fully, in order to access the greater adventure of a meaningful life.

When you, My Dear Jan, set an intent for a specific event you are limiting your access to the adventure of your life. Though I do not dismiss such activity, I do suggest that such step-by-step intent to grow does not allow for true intent to freely guide you. Your dreams of evolution and growth will only manifest to a certain point if you consciously set them before you. However, if you remove all goals and all ideas of where you want to be in your life, where you think you should be, what you deserve, desire, and conceive as necessary for your life and instead open to the adventure of your life then you will truly be open to intent.

Intent is not tied to you or to anyone else. Intent is the possibility of everything in existence, available without attachment to outcome, fully available if you are freed of control as far as the process is concerned.

There is no process that you can truly come up with to access intent, for a process implies control. The only thing I can suggest is that you allow the self to trust that your life’s unfolding is the only process and guidance you need. For example Jan, your process in searching for answers leads you on your unfolding journey, but you have learned that in order to take that journey you have had to shed your many cloaks, or tents of intent, your controlling intentions to be safe and fully in command of your life, living a predictable life in a prescribed manner until you dared to access the yearnings of the inner self most deeply. You began to access the energy of intent upon opening the door to recapitulation, allowing the mysteries of your life to become clear and known. In accepting the mysteries of the self, allowing for the vulnerable self to become known and acceptable, one is available to experience life on a new level.

I find that recapitulation is a lifelong process, that only in continually questioning my motives for all my actions do I discover what my life is all about.

Recapitulation means not only recapturing the past, reliving it, and acquiescing to the facts of it, but it also means resolving all self-imposed rules, regulations, and controls so that recapitulation leads to detachment and truly being available to the energy of growth, which is intent. Intent is the energy that an evolutionary journey is fueled by. It is not created by you nor by your innermost desires. It is simply available and in order to access it you must also be available. This is why inner work is so important. Without inner work and truthful exposure of the self, to the self, your wounded self will not heal, but simply be left in a state of protection, unavailable because of your intent to remain in control of your innocence.

Your innocence, My Dear Ones, is your key to life and to accessing the evolutionary energy of intent. Do not be afraid to discover what your innocence truly means to you. Do not be afraid to discover your vulnerabilities. Do not be afraid to expose the self to the magic of your evolutionary journey.

If there is a process to engage it is the process of evolution and growth. Utilize your own life, each moment of your personal life, as part of that process so that you may allow the self the freedom to be open to the energy of intent and for life to evolve as it should.

When you speak of there being no real process to accessing intent, except being open to it, my first reaction is that to get to that place one must adopt many processes. Can you explain what you mean by this, in greater detail?

I do not mean to imply that a life is not a process nor that many processes are not undertaken in order to evolve. However, once one has evolved to the point of understanding that such a thing as intent exists, one must then be available to the energy of intent by becoming open, vulnerable, and innocent, with no intent except to be open to a life of fulfillment, simply open to it.

This will certainly entail utilizing many processes and, as you yourself describe in your dream, a process of acquiescence without intent, otherwise your outcome would be predictable. You see, intent is not attached to prediction or outcome. It is merely opening to the possibility of everything, without attachment to anything in particular.

Are you truly ready to take the adventure of your life? That is what you must acquiesce to in order to access intent. The greater energy of intent is, My Dears, working at all times, and this is its greatest secret. It is working for you at all times, without your acquiescence, your control, or your permission. It is always present, available, and in action, yet do you refuse it simply by your habitual responses to it.

Respond to it differently, without placing attention on its powers, simply by breaking your old patterns of thoughts, behaviors, and ideas of the self. You are an evolving being, aided by intent, whether you are aware of it or not. Wouldn’t you rather be aware or it? Wouldn’t you rather be available to flow with the energy of it, unafraid of it, simply because you know, by the truth of your life thus far lived, that you are not in control, that something else is urging you to take the adventure of this lifetime to the fullest? Are you ready to acquiesce to true life?

I leave you today with the thought that a life’s unfolding process is all you need to discover your personal reality. Study the self. Acquiesce to the journey of your life, with maturity and innocence walking hand in hand.

#605 Chuck’s Place: THE BIG BABY: A Shamanic Explanation

Welcome to Chuck’s Place, where Chuck Ketchel expresses his thoughts, insights, and experiences! Many of the shamanic and psychological terms used in Chuck’s essays are defined in Tools & Definitions on our Psychotherapy website.

The good news is this: when shamans view the energetic state of human beings they see the big baby as an inevitable consequence of our human predicament. In other words: IT IS NOT OUR FAULT. IT IS BEYOND OUR CONTROL.

Shamans observe that we enter life with a high sheen surrounding our energetic cocoon. Shamans call this sheen our glow of awareness. Shamans have discovered that this energetic glow is food for inorganic beings, which are self-contained energetic entities that lack physical form; hence remain unseen by human eyes. Shamans call these specific inorganic beings, that prey upon the human glow of awareness, flyers, due to their energetic form and behaviors.

Shamans observe that flyers actually feed upon the glow of awareness of all human beings. Shamans maintain that the universe is predatory. If we reflect upon our own feeding behaviors, or that of all life forms on earth, we can see this same predatory principle in action: life feeds upon life. As grotesque as it is, why would we humans be exempt from serving as a food source for another form of life?

Shamans observe that without our glow of awareness we die. Furthermore, they observe that if we lose some of our glow it does indeed grow back. Flyers are careful, when they feed, to leave enough of our glow on our energetic cocoon so that it will grow back for future feeding. Through this method of “sustainable agriculture” they are assured a replenished food source.

Shamans state that flyers leave the glow of awareness in tact from the level of the ground up to the toes; this is the epicenter of self-reflection; this fixation of awareness at ground level creates the big baby. The big baby simply cannot see beyond itself. It is caught in self-neediness, self-pity, self-survival, self-importance, and its entitlement to be given recognition, value, care, love, and attention from without. Don Juan states that when caught in self-reflection we become easily offended, causing emotional embroilments that result in spikes in our glow of awareness that the flyers, in turn, consume. Don Juan instructed Carlos Castaneda to observe carefully the behavior of seemingly mature adults whom he admired, for instance, certain professors. Carlos discovered that behind the veil of maturity was a well-hidden insatiable self-importance, greedily seeking the admiration of all.

The good news, from the shamanic world, is that this human predicament is correctable. Shamans discovered that if we can break our attachment to the tyranny of the big baby’s perspective, that of self-reflection, etc., our growing glow of awareness changes texture, whereby it becomes distasteful to the flyers palate and they leave us alone. We are then able to restore our full glow of awareness around our energetic cocoon, freeing us from the limitations of self-reflection.

Through the centuries, shamans have devised methods to achieve this detachment from the big baby. One major venue of great relevance and accessibility, in our time, is focusing on our relationships with the petty tyrants in our lives. In general terms, a petty tyrant is anyone or anything that triggers our self-reflection in the form of the experience of feeling offended. This could be a person who refuses to acknowledge us or care about us despite their vows, or someone who blatantly violates us. This could also be a life circumstance, such as poverty or disease that we simply don’t deserve. Behind all offense is a blow to our self-importance: Why me? Being emotionally embroiled in the experience of being offended becomes the perfect opportunity to learn detachment. Shamans would call detachment arriving at a place of no pity, no self-pity, while caught by the “offensive behavior” of a petty tyrant. By arriving at a place of no self-pity in an interaction with a petty tyrant, who is indeed subtly or blatantly violating us, frees us from the self-reflective perspective of the big baby. We simply don’t take it personally.

This does not mean that we must turn the other cheek and allow ourselves to be hurt. However, we can free our defensive actions from the offended place of abuse and victimhood, shift to an objective perspective, and take appropriate action. Simply put, this means not taking the behavior of the petty tyrant personally, no matter how personally directed it is. From this perspective we can see the interrelationship of all things, which includes the petty tyrant as necessary, as both a dark force and as a teacher. After all, success in detachment from the big baby when encountering the petty tyrant frees our glow of awareness, enabling it to restore to its natural state, allowing us a much broader perspective of life.

Perhaps the greatest benefit of this detachment is a newfound ability to truly love. To love another requires going beyond the fixation of self-reflection, the big baby. I repeat: detachment is the highest form of love. Until we can fully detach from the self, we are not available to see, be with, or give to another without some level, however hidden, of self-interest.

Learning to detach from the big baby allows us unconditional compassion for all. We see the connection between the self and all things. Our glow of awareness, fully restored, is now capable of truly engaging the world beyond the self.

As always, should anyone wish to write, I can be reached at: chuck@riverwalkerpress.com or feel free to post a comment.

Until we meet again,
Chuck

Chuck Ketchel, LCSWR