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A Day in a Life: Dream Teaching

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I woke up this morning and said: “I was being taught all night long.”

“What do you mean, you were being taught?” Chuck asked.

“I was being taught something all night long in dreaming, the same thing repeatedly, but now I can’t remember what it was!” I whined. “Maybe I can call it up later, I’m pretty good at that,” I said, as I fought to hold onto what had vanished as soon as I opened my eyes. Synchronistically, this is exactly what happened last October when I was dreaming with the women shamans, asking them to teach me how to become a shaman and it is what I had been planning to write about today. So, wouldn’t you know, I had another experience to underscore the process of learning to become a shaman. Here is the experience I had last fall, as I wrote about it in my journal on October 23, 2009:

Dreaming was not as successful last night, though I asked for the next step in shamanic practice. Once again I put the dreaming pillow on my lower abdomen before I fell asleep. Whatever I got had something to do with the self, both the body self and the ego self, but it was not clear. Ironically, I fought with my body throughout the night, too lazy to sit up, reach for my notebook and write down what I was getting, clear or not.

“Write it down!” I commanded my sleeping self, but then I would argue: “It’s not clear!”

“Write it anyway!” I retaliated, but still I was too lazy to do so. I figured I would remember it, which I have failed to do, except knowing that it had something to do with the self. Perhaps it was about aligning the body self with the intent to do the work. The lazy body obviously got in my way last night. I will have to give it another go tonight and hopefully I will not have the same issue to contend with, my lazy self. Pretty interesting, I must say!

Later in the day I wrote the following:

Okay, so I get that I was confronted with my lazy self and that is my current challenge. This lazy self must be confronted in order to keep moving forward. This is the avoidant self, the reluctant self, the fearful self, but she is not as strong as she used to be. Now she is more like a slug in the way, not much energy, but still present and capable of sabotaging my progress. This sluggish self was, at one time, the depressed, traumatized self, immobilized by fear and unavailable to truly live until the trauma had been realized. In the old days, before I recapitulated, I remained caught in two worlds, never quite present in either, but now that I am awake I must remain awake and alert. The old sluggish self still tests me as she did last night while dreaming. I argued with her. Contending with this self is the third step in the practice of shamanic work, the whole physical self: the conscious mental self, the body self, the conjuring mind self, the ego self, but I see it as all related to the ingrained comforts of the physical body, the lazy self. (End of journal entry.)

My experience last night was very similar to that of last October. I still have my notebook open beside me as I sleep, a pen stuck into the page and all I have to do is lean over, pick up the pen and begin writing. I argued with myself again last night, thinking in dreaming that of course I would remember, I always remember, I’m good at that. All aspects of the physical self were present again last night, teaching me a valuable lesson; the conjuring mind, the ego self, the lazy physical self all in cahoots to show me that something else is necessary in order to truly do shamanic work, and that is: to get beyond the limitations of the physical self, which will always seek to remain dominant.

The other thing that strikes me today is that the two previous lessons that I learned in dreaming were also in play last night and in my dream of last October too. I was being shown again the workings of the two minds, the conjuring mind and the inner knowing mind that argue incessantly. I knew I should write down what I was getting on both occasions, but I could not get beyond the ego, which upheld its superiority. “Don’t worry Jan,” my ego self said, “you’ll remember!” The second lesson, the value of repetition, was also in action. In both instances I dreamed the same thing, over and over again, but since I also argued with my physical self, I failed miserably to recall what the lessons were. Once again, as I had done last October, I woke up this morning holding onto the fact that I was missing, because of my laziness, a very valuable lesson, but now I see the real lesson as being the repetitive, night-long fight between the two minds. The knowing mind was seeking to wake me up, asking me to shift out of the old lazy self and allow the new disciplined self to take over and push the ego, the conjuring mind, and the lazy physical self out of the way.

Alas! Now I understand the true value of repetition: to force a shift. But shift will only happen when we are ready; when we finally get just what it is that we are being taught or asked to do, when we have repeated the same lessons to the point of mundanity and boredom, until we say, hey, there must be more to life than just this same old stuff! And in the shamanic world the action of shifting is not an action of the conjuring mind, except in learning to know it, in understanding how it works to hold us in our old places, in our lazy body selves, in our comforts, in our egos, in our old places of trauma, until we have learned what they have been trying to wake us up to, in dreaming or in waking life. Pushing ourselves beyond the limitations of the physical, mind or otherwise, is the next step in learning to become a shaman.

Know your enemy. Know your mind, know your ego, know your limitations and then push beyond them. Wake up and remember! These are the real lessons in awareness that I have been taught by the women shamans. Whether you are interested in the shamanic world or not, awareness is the true key to evolving, in this world and in the next. Once again, this is all related to the practice of recapitulation too. The steps I have learned from the women shamans of don Juan’s line are steps in undertaking the process of fully understanding the self, because, in actuality, you have to understand and know the self in order to understand the shaman’s world and be able to maneuver in it. It is the same thing that we will be confronted with when we die. We must be prepared to maneuver in a world where we will no longer have a physical self to rely on, to blame, or to trust. No comforts of the physical will be available. Only our energy bodies will be available, and how will we fare if we do not know them?

Next week, I will bring you the fourth step in the process of shamanic work that I learned in dreaming with the dreamers. Until then, watch out for the conjuring mind! Pay attention to what the body is repeatedly attempting to say instead, as Jeanne suggests in her lessons in inner work; go deeper into the body self. Pay attention to the earthquakes within, as she mentioned in her message on Monday. The body holds more in its silent sinews than you know. And then go beyond to the energy that lives inside that lazy physical house of self and invite it to emerge from its sleepy state and enjoy a little of the energy of the spring with you!
With love and humble attempts to remain aware,
Jan

Messages from Jeanne

#676 Earthquakes Within

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Jan Ketchel channeling Jeanne Marie Ketchel

Dear Jeanne,
As I communicate with you today I am reminded that we have done this channeling more than six hundred times for our readers. Our personal communications extend far beyond even those messages, into the thousands since we began this process almost nine years ago. When I fathom that, I am absolutely amazed. I know there are many skeptics in the world, people who have no connection to spirit, within or without, or even to themselves as energy. I have never not had that kind of connection, but it has, until ten years ago, been very private, underdeveloped, often pushed aside and doubted, often felt as troubling, frightening or too vague to understand clearly. Now, through my work with you and Chuck, and on myself, I have elected to pay attention, to accept the challenges that arise, to better understand the meaningfulness of everything that has occurred and continues to occur in my life as part of my personal evolutionary process. As a result I have been able to slowly change, to accept that I am a different person and to push to become that new person in the world. This is what I wish for everyone, but I know that is naive, that it is very difficult for people to embrace the hidden sides of themselves, good and bad, so that they can change. It is a long and arduous process, but it does allow for true change to happen. We see now, and Chuck points this out in his blog essay too, that even the Catholic Church, that stalwart and self-righteous structure, is being asked to do a public recapitulation, to confront the past, to be truthful, honest, and forthright before the world, to confront its darkness and evolve spiritually. This is what we are all challenged to do in our lives. I know what it means because I did it. I did a recapitulation, and it isn’t easy. Even having done the major part of it I continue to do it every day, as I find myself in many worlds, seeking balance, struggling to maintain my inner identity and to evolve to my fullest potential while continually going beyond my inhibitions and fears.

What can you offer us today to aid us all in our attempts to not only stay connected to spirit, but to more fully embrace the true aspects of who we are as human beings, fallible and hidden though we may be, while at the same time we know, by our own experiences, that confronting the truth really does set us free? How do we more fully embrace our human condition, loving ourselves for our journeys, while at the same time lovingly pushing our fearful selves to keep evolving? What guidance do you offer us today?

You ask, My Dear, for guidance in the process of achieving wholeness. As you know, I always contend that life itself will lead you there, but an inner awakening must occur and be reckoned with in order for the two selves to meet and assign themselves to a mutual journey. Without recognition and partnership, the journey ahead will be fragmented and unclear, as you state in your query was your own experience for many years.

Many people upon that earth elect to deny the true workings of the inner spirit, the holiness within, because it frightens them. In its awakening process the inner spirit shakes awake not only its own long buried persona, but in its rumblings it shatters that which has stood solidly present and in control for so many years. An inner awakening rattles the outer world in much the same way that an earthquake rattles awake the world far above its center of heat. Angry splitting apart may be the result of an earthquake on the outside, but on the inside it is merely a shifting of conditions no longer tenable in their current state. When tensions arise there is no recourse except to alleviate them in some fashion.

I suggest to Our Dear Readers that inner tension always be paid attention to. It is not meant to drive you crazy or force you into misery, sickness, depression, anxiety, or fear, but simply to ask you to notice that something deep inside you is asking for the shift that it needs in order for the process of life to evolve. The world around you constantly changes and evolves and you, My Dear Human Souls, are also being presented with the same process. You are being asked to recognize the earthquakes and storms within for the spiritual awakenings that they are.

As you know, I stress the shamanic term recapitulation as the process that must be undertaken in order to properly deal with the inner heat. This is a spiritual process whereby the inner self is allowed to speak, to reveal itself, to be offered a platform for expulsion, revelation, and renewal, so that each of you may reconnect to the true growth energy within, that of nature, of God within, and to the possibility for understanding the self as energy, interconnected to all other energy.

Once you feel the awakening of the energy of inner self it is hard to reject it. Once the hard crust of neglect has cracked and the secrets of self have begun to seep outward it is hard to repair the festering wounds it reveals. The tearing awake of the inner self, bursting through the long-toughening process of life, is no less an act of nature than the earthquakes that rock your globe. Your earth’s inner awakening reflects the great need for the inner spirit to emerge from its darkness and become present in that world where it has so often been pushed aside.

I do not speak of religions, of church doctrines, or of preaching dictates. I speak only of the true energy of inner spirit, which resides in every human being upon that earth. You each have within all that it takes to evolve. You must allow your awakenings, your inner rumblings, to teach you what you need to know about the self. You must allow your secrets to be revealed to the self. You must accept yourself as fallible and as good, as lost and as found, as hungry for life in a new manner. Only in accepting the wholeness of self, encompassing all that you love and want and all that you hate and fear, will you achieve that new life you so hunger for, My Dears. And you must learn what it means to be truthful, honest, and utterly naked and revealed, facing the self without conflicts of interest, without conventional voices dictating judgments and proposals that overshadow the truths of who you truly are.

Remind yourselves often of your energetic content, of your ability to flow with life, of your desire for connection. Practice your evolving biddings by listening to what is going on inside you more intently. Listen to your inner self and ask what to do next. And then wait for the answer. It will come.

Thank you, Jeanne! I understand that you are also proposing that we are like the energy of nature itself, that we are no different. Would you contend that the preponderances of natural disasters are warning us of our true inner desires to change and evolve? There have been earthquakes, a volcano in Iceland, global warming, cyclones, typhoons, flooding and any number of natural disasters lately affecting the world. I have felt them to be signs that Mother Earth, that nature itself will not allow us to be in control for much longer, that we are being forced to change, but I don’t feel that enough people are listening. Can you comment?

Nature itself will reveal its intentions. It has far greater power to shake the world and shatter the empty dreams and cogitations of greed than any human alive. There is none so powerful as Mother Nature. But you must all pay attention to that same energy within. Mother Nature resides within. God resides within. All power resides within, good and bad. Evolutionary potential, built up over centuries, lies within. Some of you upon that earth have been evolving for many years, many lifetimes, while others are new at it. It is up to the old souls to lead the way, by example, returning to earth energy. The earth itself is showing you that this is the proper road to take, for it leads to the inevitable change that is to come.

Do not be afraid of change, but prepare for personal change first by embracing that which comes from within to teach you what it means to embrace change without. Learn to embrace the journey of self, of the inner self yearning for partnership and mergence in life. Return to nature by returning to self. The true connection to self and nature lies within and that is where your energy lies: within. The energy of earth lies within, and it has the capacity to shift and change the outer world when the time is right.

Do for yourselves what you know you must. Prepare to evolve. In adopting a new relationship with the self as an evolving energy being you will be ready for what comes in your life to greet you. Your practices of inner awakenings will have prepared you well.

NOTE: As I was typing up this message I heard a knock at the door and an elderly gentleman, a Jehovah’s Witness, was standing on the porch looking at our concrete Buddha who sits gazing out over our front walk. He asked me what I thought about all the change in the world, and I replied that I thought the world itself was showing us that we have to change too. He handed me a copy of Awake! This month’s pamphlet is subtitled: Nature had it first. I am struck by the synchronicity of this visit while I was working on this awakening message today.
-Jan

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#675 Chuck’s Place: The Spirit & The Flesh

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In recent weeks I have explored, from the shamanic perspective, the role of the petty tyrant in preparation for the definitive journey at death. As reactions to these blogs demonstrate, it is extremely challenging to fathom anything positive emerging from such horrific encounters with pure evil as the Holocaust or a personal holocaust of childhood sexual abuse. As a clinician, I have spent much of my professional career questioning how an adult could sexually violate a helpless child. The very idea of such an interaction is so devastating, repulsive, abhorrent, and painful that we quickly turn away from even allowing such an image to present itself in our mind’s eye. Is it no wonder that the world’s conscience has remained dormant, as denial has prevailed well into our modern age, refusing to acknowledge the reality of a worldwide epidemic of childhood sexual abuse?

In my personal quest for understanding, and as I have accompanied many clients through their journeys of recovery, I have learned much about the underlying psychology contributing to the psychopathic behaviors of perpetrators. This understanding, however valid, is still limited to a focus on the individual perpetrator, his or her individual life and individual history. This focus does not allow for the broader view, the fact that we are all part of an interconnected whole. How could it be that a massive worldwide phenomenon of childhood sexual abuse could have such a prominent role in the life of the interconnected unit we call the human race? Every individual who commits an act of sexual abuse is responsible for his or her behavior, end of story. No excuses. However, is it not time for the human race to examine itself and question how such an aberration could be part of our interconnected whole? Is it not the responsibility of the human race to address its own shadow?

This collective issue appears ripe for discussion as the reality of sexual abuse has now stained the hands of, for Catholics, God’s #1 representative on earth: The Pope. The Catholic Church, like most institutions, has denied, minimized, or turned a blind eye, for centuries, to the large-scale sexual exploitation of children by its priests. It has taken our modern age, with its unrelenting waves of information, to finally topple the Vatican’s solidly built wall of denial. As significant as this process of acknowledging the truth is, I wish to focus instead on the aberrant solution of the dilemma of the spirit and the flesh in these abusing priests: the ultimate “spiritual” representatives on the one hand now revealed as the ultimate “physical” violators.

The Catholic religion has been the major religion to insist upon celibacy for its priests. This absolute separation of spirit from flesh presupposes some kind of tenable reconciliation of spirit and matter; meaning, in effect, that the completely repressed sexual side of a human being could be transformed and brought into balance with the spiritual side. I don’t doubt that this transformation can take place; in fact, celibacy is a central feature of the shaman’s world. However, it is obvious that for the Catholic Church it has failed miserably for many of its ordained priests, resulting in a backlash of ravenous, blind, instinctual exploitation of innocent children.

In a book entitled, The Myth of Meaning, Aniela Jaffe, analyst, editor and Jung’s personal secretary writes:

“Because the primitive is so close to nature, the meaning of his myths gives him a sense of security. Everything he does, everything he experiences, is intimately connected with the cosmos, with the stars and the wind, with sacred animals and gods. Modern man, with his incomparably more differentiated consciousness, has lost touch with nature both without and within, with his psychic images and therefore with meaning. He is one-sided, and he goes on developing one-sidedly along the path of intellectual differentiation. The primitive child of nature, who yet dwells within him, was repressed, consequently it degenerated and from time to time goes berserk and turns him into a pitiless barbarian. Contact with the unconscious, which heals and makes whole, restores the connection with his origin, with the source of psychic images. This is not a reversion to barbarism, but regeneration through a renewed and conscious relationship with a living spirit buried in the unconscious. Every step forward on the way to individuation is at the same time a step backwards into the past, into the mysteries of one’s own nature.” (p. 148-9)

Herein lies the crux of the problem, I believe, for our interconnected human race, which the Catholic dilemma serves so well to illustrate. We are all children of nature; animalistic, primitive and deeply instinctual, whether we acknowledge or experience it consciously. But, we have become so one-sided, as Jaffe states, in our intellectual, rational, scientific, mental, technological, interneted-friended-texted-facebooked selves, that we have divorced ourselves from our own true human nature, which is non-rational, instinctual, physical and yes, primitive and animalistic. This worldwide dissociation from our instinctual selves, this lack of integration and reconciliation with our mental/spiritual selves, has created a ravaging, feelingless ferocious beast in our human race, which strikes back as the predator who preys upon the innocent. Even animals in their predatory behaviors do not come near the cruelty of the rabid human animal in its predatory revenge for its exclusion from the true human equation.

I am proposing that, from a human-racial perspective, the psychopathic manifestation of sexual abuse is a ruthless compensation by our inner nature to level our spiritual one-sidedness with instinctual devastation, so aptly illustrated by the abuser priest. This type of compensatory balance is unacceptable and is finally being made available to the world’s conscience. Perpetrators must be exposed and held fully accountable. However, as a race, we humans are responsible for taking back the night, not just in an outer sense of physical safety, but in an inner claiming and reconciliation with our own irrational, instinctual shadow natures. As Jaffe points out, reconciling with our instinctual nature is not a reversion to barbarism, but a “regeneration through a renewed and conscious relationship with a living spirit buried in the unconscious.” We must make contact with our instinctual natures and take up the challenge of integrating our instinctual selves into our modern lives in a healthy balance. Furthermore, we must have the moral courage to face the feelings and images of our animalistic selves. We have consciousness and the ability to choose how these impulses are understood and lived. The fact that we have feelings, impulses, and desires, which run counter to our moral and ethical code, does not make us pathological. Too often we are so disturbed by the occurrence of an unacceptable thought or impulse that we immediately repress it or see ourselves as somehow deviant. If we can suspend judgment and look upon the products of our inner nature with a curiosity and quest for understanding we will discover what nature is truly trying to show us. If we deny our natural, primitive side, we create the conditions of impoverishment that can force nature to violent extremes.

Nature, from this viewpoint, will not be denied without serious consequences. To sleep, to dream, to face our deepest unconscious selves, embracing our wholeness, is the individual and human challenge in order to achieve ultimate balance and reconciliation of the spirit and the flesh.

If you wish to correspond, please feel free to post a comment below.

Until we meet again,
Chuck

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A Day in a Life: The Value of Repetition

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Today, I continue writing about my dreaming experiences with the women shamans of don Juan’s line, which I began blogging about last week in Being-in-Dreaming. But first, I must mention that I am struck by the synchronicity of Jeanne’s message on Monday as related to the process I am writing about. Even though my dreaming experiences took place several months ago, as I write about them now Jeanne’s weekly messages seem to be in synch. These evolved beings, the women shamans and Jeanne, are really all talking about the same thing: the process of recapitulation.

As regards Jeanne, I refer to the three stages of detachment reaction that she spoke of the other day as being essential during the process of recapitulation. During my own recapitulation I learned to step back and view how I normally reacted to the events in my life. As the process of recapitulation unfolded I learned that my first reaction, to a memory for instance, always needed to be challenged. Even though I was initially confronted with very familiar, comfortable and conventional responses, I had to find out where they came from. Did they really come from me or were they from something I had been taught, heard, or assimilated from outside of myself, perhaps falsely? Were they spoken in someone else’s voice, having absolutely nothing to do with me? Was I just mimicking something I had not really ever questioned? Was I being judgmental, dismissive, or prejudiced? Was I operating out of fear, denial, or self-pity? Was I getting the memory right from my perspective or was it from someone else’s perspective, long ago ingrained?

The second level, going deeper into the self, was a lesson in finding my own voice, connecting to my own truths and learning to pay attention to them. This level involved interacting with a different me, discovering that I really was that someone inside I had always known existed but never really allowed to be fully present. This was the level of waking that self up and allowing her to speak, allowing her to relive the past, fully aware now, without the veils, the conventions, the old voices. This was the process of continually pushing away the old ideas of self, facing the petty tyrants, and staying connected to the inner self, no matter how painful, how frightening, how annihilating. This was the process of forging a new connection to the inner self and allowing the old self to slowly break down, no longer useful or necessary, as eventually my world changed along with me and the old self became the one who didn’t fit, who didn’t feel right anymore.

By going to the third level that Jeanne spoke of, to utter calm certainty of self, I was able to recapitulate fully and truthfully, detached from the conjuring mind, accessing the knowing mind that I wrote about last week. By achieving this deeper place of recapitulation I was able to fully own my life, my experiences, my actions and reactions, taking them on as my personal truths and experiences, full of meaning for me as an evolving being, detached from expectations and judgments of self and others. From this place I was able to go even deeper, into the unknown that lies beyond the self.

So, you might see, as I suggest, that the first message in dreaming that I received from the women shamans was that first level of reaction that Jeanne suggests we must confront in ourselves, because this is the step in learning to distinguish between the two minds, the outer conventional voices and the inner true voice. Today, I address the second level that Jeanne mentions, which is right in alignment with my second night of dreaming with the women shamans, which I wrote about in my journal on October 22, 2009, as follows:

Once again I asked the female shamans to teach me something in dreaming. Once again I placed the dreaming pillow on my lower abdomen and I asked to be taught the next step in learning to be a shaman and this is what I got (which I wrote in my journal while sleeping, in automatic writing):

The value of repetition.
That which appears
boring and mundane
holds the key to
something important.
Do not dismiss
any signs. (End of journal entry.)

Repetition is one of the facets of recapitulation that I found most annoying. However, going over a memory or studying a behavior countless times, to the point of boredom, was a most essential process. It not only neutralized the memory or behavior, but allowed me to further gain access to the new me. By constantly confronting the old me, the old petty tyrants, the old memories, the old behaviors and feelings, the old ideas of self and others; by constantly reasserting that I was no longer there, no longer that person, no longer thinking, acting, behaving in the old manner and, yes, by facing my own boring self over and over again, I gained surer footing in the new me.

In that second level of reaction, as Jeanne calls it, the women shamans contend that we will find that which is the key to the self. This is the part of the process where we make the connection to our potential self. This is our awakening step, where, as the new self begins to emerge and we chip away at the old self and the old world, we are granted glimpses of what is to come. It is only through repetition, in making the same mistakes countless times until we are totally bored by them, that we truly will change. I learned that change does not happen over night, that it takes a lot of work. It takes daring. It takes confronting the old self, the old petty tyrants, the old conjurers in our midst, facing our issues until we are done with them, completely and fully.

This part of the recapitulation process is where the bulk of the work is done. It is where we meet ourselves in our most vulnerable, our most fearful, our most confused, our most false and our most truthful states. It is where we face our petty tyrants over and over again. It is where we discover who we have become and who we might become in the future if we dare to keep going. If we can do as the women shamans instruct and value the repetition of our lives and our recapitulation process, repeatedly facing even the most boring and mundane of issues regarding ourselves, we will discover the key to where we are going, to something important about ourselves.

In fact, if we can stay with the process of life itself, and not dismiss any signs, but value everything that comes to us, even our need to continually stay in old places, old relationships, old habits, old patterns of behavior we offer ourselves the opportunity to change. And when we are ready to fully recapitulate, we discover that the key is within. To each of us that key offers deep personal meaning, personal revelation, and personal experiences that have the potential to take us far beyond this world, to better balance between worlds, to grant us the daring to keep exploring our selves and all that this world truly holds.

Next week, I will write again about my dreaming experiences with the women shamans. It will also be interesting to see what Jeanne offers us next week, and Chuck too in his blog this week. We tend to speak on similar topics, though without forethought or planning. It’s just the way it works!

Dream, do inner work, ask for help. As you can see, I always seem to get exactly what I ask for, though it may not arrive in the form I imagine. If you care to comment, please feel free.
Love,
Jan

Messages from Jeanne

#674 Three Levels of Detachment Reaction

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Jan Ketchel channeling Jeanne Marie Ketchel

Dear Jeanne,
Today, I ask for guidance for all your readers, those we know and those we don’t know, for those who are near and those who are far, for anyone who might happen to stray upon our work in the course of searching for meaning in life. What message do you offer all of us, as we continue our journeys upon this earth?

My Dearest Ones, do not hesitate to fully embrace who you are, the inner you but also the outer you. The life long process to achieve balance and depth must include both aspects of self. To reject one aspect of self over another is to invite derision and conflict into the journey. The process of inner work involves enough conflict and derision without projecting and rejecting parts of the self. The greater process is one of acceptance, mergence, and wholeness. The ultimate journey upon that earth is one of acquiescence, for you cannot stop life’s unfolding. You cannot call a halt to the facts of your being, of your physical self or your conscious engagement in the world, but you can gain inner peace, balance, and reach a depth of study of self that will lead to detachment, acceptance and acquiescence.

If you consider the facts of your life, you will admit that they happened. Can you deny that you were born and have lived, thus far, all that you have lived? You also cannot deny that you will continue to have the process of life unfolding in your future. In some form or another your life will unfold. You will wake up each day and be presented with who you are, what you have done, and what you will do next. You will either find your process acceptable or you will fight it. Those are the two basic choices you are presented with as each day unfolds.

Your decision to fight your life process will present you with certain challenges, and your decision to accept it will present you with another set of challenges, even though the circumstances of your life will be the same. You see what I am getting at? Your life will unfold as it will. It will be the same whether you fight it or accept it, but you are fully in charge of how you decide to meet it. Do you choose to meet your next day with anger, regret, hostility, or sadness, or other such debilitating energy drains? Or do you elect to accept, learn, and move on with a new attitude about the self, firmly accepting of your inner process to lead you beyond the immediate reactions you have to your self and the events in your life?

Wow, I guess I find that statement somewhat judgmental on your part, as well as challenging, Jeanne. We have to experience all those debilitating energy drains too, don’t we?

Yes, my Dear One. As you know I have said many times that one must be where one must be, but today, I am asking you to challenge the self to try something different in order to push the limits of your abilities, to go beyond the normal process that may have become stagnant. So bear with me as we proceed on this unfolding process. Okay?

Yes, I acquiesce to this unfolding process. Keep going with your message.

You see, what I challenge you with today is to go beyond your immediate reactions to the self and others, to your circumstances and your current position in life and to accept that this is life unfolding, to accept that you cannot stop what has happened, but you can change how you react. And this is an evolutionary growth step.

To take a step forward it is often quite reasonable to first take a step back from the self, to step aside and view the self as an unfamiliar object. If you can allow the self to do this, I ask that you stand aside and look over at that self you are at this moment and note your immediate reactions. What do you feel, see, interpret, as you honestly look at the self? What are your first impressions? Write them down in one column labeled: First Level Reactions.

Next, I request that you calm your self with some heart-centered breathing. Take a few minutes to do some calming breaths and then look at the self standing over there from this softer heart-centered place. In a column titled Second Level Reactions jot down what you notice about that self now, allowing your detached heart-centered self to truthfully note feelings, reactions and truths.

Now, I ask you to go another level into the self and into detachment for self at the same time. Going deeper into calm heart-centered breathing ask the self what is needed to move beyond this moment. Ask the inner self to ask that self standing over there to tell you what you truly need in order to become acceptable so that you may choose to react to life differently. Write down what you hear being spoken in a third column called: Deeper Level Reactions.

These three columns of words are your truths of this moment, of this day, of this time in your life. They may be different tomorrow or in the future, but for this moment they are the truths of the self. Now comes the challenging part. As you look at the truths of self that you have written down, I ask that you do not attach to them as either good or bad, but simply accept them. These are things that are true, and truths are just that: the truth.

To process these truths, to accept them without judgment and without attachment, one must now decide what comes next. What must you do to change something that is keeping you from enjoying your life? What must you do to accept that truth that bothers you so much? What must you do so that your reactions to the truths of the self may be no reaction at all, except: Yes, it is so. This is my truth. I accept these facts of self without attachment to emotional reactions such as anger, sadness, regret, self-pity or horror. I accept these aspects of self.

The next step is to send out a request, an intent for help and guidance in one form or another, perhaps in this prayer: And now I desire change. I ask: Please allow me to take my journey each day, allowing me to accept who I am, and help me to challenge myself to change. Help me to detach from the old, having fully accepted the old me, knowing that in order to grow I must change. This I desire.

By setting the self on a daily path of change, with acceptance and acquiescence as part of the plan of attack, you will, undoubtedly My Dears, discover that you are fully equipped, within the self, to learn self-detachment, self-acceptance, and to teach the self how to move beyond the old self who holds you from your promise. And what is your promise? It is fully acquiescing to the fact that you are a being comprised of energy. You are deeper and more daring than you know. Until you detach from the old ideas of self, and dare to interact with the inevitable truths of the self, you will only brush up against the true promise you hold within.

Today, I dare you all, My Dear Readers, to stand apart from who you think you are. Gain a little perspective, then gain a little detachment, then gain a little insight to take you on the next step with a different attitude about the self, remaining fully aware of all that you are. You are you, and that is the truth. But now, what are you going to do with your self? You can’t stay there, can you?

Is there something still missing? That is what you seek. What is missing from your process that has not allowed you to fully embrace your wholeness, your compassionate, true self? What is keeping you from moving, every day, toward discovering your true promise?

NOTE: At three in the morning I heard two owls calling to each other. The call of the barred owl is quite distinct, eerily haunting and magical at the same time, visceral and grittily predatory while at the same time stirringly beautiful. Whenever I hear the owl calling I always feel the presence of the dark side and the light side at the same time. The call of the owl always makes me wonder: What is to come? From Animal Speak Ted Andrews writes that the owl presents us with the mystery of magic, omens, silent wisdom and vision at night. Owl symbolizes the feminine, the moon, the night. It is associated with healing, fertility, seduction. It is the bird of magic and darkness, prophecy and wisdom. Owl is able to extract secrets. With its acute vision and hearing it is related to seeing the truth. Owls have secret knowledge to share: they get to the truth. As I read through the interpretations of Owl in Animal Speak I saw the synchronicity of my nighttime visitor and Jeanne’s message today. She is asking us to be our own Owl, to use owl medicine, so to speak, to reach into our deeper darker selves and, using our clairvoyance and truth-seeking detached selves, reveal our truths and work with them. Look into our souls and face our truths. This is our challenge this week and we have the energy of Owl accompanying us. -Jan

Chuck Ketchel, LCSWR