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—Channeled by Jan Ketchel

Our Messages from Jeanne category began as a platform to bring our channeled messages to a wider audience. The earliest messages were written missives, so if you go back in the files you will find hundreds of written messages. Later we went to an audio format so more recent messages are spoken. To search by theme or special interest, use the search button in the navigation bar. Our hopes are that all of the messages, no matter the format, offer helpful guidance in navigating the waters of life.

Messages from Jeanne, Questions for Jeanne

#528 A Process of Self-Forgiveness

Jeanne Marie Ketchel
Channeled by Jan Ketchel

Today, another reader asks a question.

Dear Jan/Jeanne,
I have had many very human experiences in the last year. They range from the desire to live a life of fulfillment, which led me to speak my truth for the first time in my marriage and begin the process of detaching from that relationship, to throwing myself into my business and home, to supporting a friend as she released her human life. Life and death, and all else in between, have been with me this year. Intellectually, I understand that this is the continuum; life, death, rebirth. Even before I could explain that, I knew I had been here before and so this always made sense to me. What I want to understand is how do I hold that knowledge, honor that knowledge, in the midst of all the human experiences that I am here to partake in? How do I honor my exquisite energy while my human body craves connection and pulls me into pathways of comfort? How do I walk away from a life that holds so much wonder and pain into a life that is better for my eternal soul? Intuitively, I also know that whatever I do will benefit my soul, and it may speed up or slow down the process. There seems to be this idea that only the soul should matter, but what of the body and its needs? What of the mind and its awareness? I feel as though I will miss things if I only focus on the needs of my soul. I want to enjoy my life in all its glorious expressions, on all levels of my eternal self, mind, body, and spirit. How do I embrace all of these?

Anonymous

My Dearest One, you address the struggles of all humans, who are aware of their spiritual and eternal selves, to maintain balance and yet continue to grow. Is it not possible to do all that you so eagerly desire? Is it not possible to be so human and so spiritually aware simultaneously? I contend that it is. However, there is a process of forgiveness that must be undertaken in order to achieve this balance. This forgiveness I speak of is not the forgiveness that you might equate with actions taken and regretted. The forgiveness I speak of is self-forgiveness; so that you may fully embrace the journey you are on and allow the self to really be as free and embracing of all aspects of the self that you so desire.

Forgiveness of self is a process of learning to detach from the structures of life imposed by society and the inner self who remains caught in old places. This inner self who confronts the “pathways of comfort,” as you call them, is the self who must release its energy and allow for growth.

Who is this inner self inside you, personally, My Dear One? This is the self who must be addressed, embraced, fully pondered, and become known, so that a new comfort in fully trusting the self may take over and allow for full expression in life. Is this self a frightened and reluctant child, or a taciturn baby? Is it a demanding inner self who, in spite of all that life presents, continually refuses to give up the old comforts, though it sees clearly the life and energy that is available if it does so? Are you caught in several areas of old comfort, many strands of reluctance and fear? This is not an uncommon place to be.

The adult self is the facilitator of this self-forgiveness that I speak of, the intelligent and mature adult self who does, in fact, gravitate toward as much enjoyment of life as it does gravitate toward the enjoyments of the spiritual aspects of life. The rituals of the inner process, the old comforts, are as binding and fulfilling as the rituals undertaken on a spiritual path. So you see, My Dear One, if you are struggling to release the self, you are going to have to confront the deeply embedded rituals in your life. These rituals may range from the simplest and most apparent, such as the process of waking up and having tea or coffee, to the ritual of standing still in the middle of your busy day to take a breath and connect with the inner you, asking the outer you to slow down a minute and breathe in new energy.

Rituals bind us all to habits that may be good or bad for us, comfortable or uncomfortable, desired or undesirable, fulfilling or unfulfilling, beneficial or damaging. But also keep in mind that no matter what the consequences of our habits in life are, they are giving us the experiences we need, showing us things about ourselves that we must learn, though it may take us a long time to notice that we are, indeed, living a ritualistic life, rather than an evolutionary one.

This, My Dear, is what you are confronting in the self as you experience change, new life, death, energy, and the needs of the human self to excel and experience the grandeur of the world you live in, along with the deeply emotional aspects of life. You may begin to notice that much of your life has been reduced to ritual, to habit, to pathways of comfort that do not necessarily lead to growth. These are the areas of life that must change in order for evolution to supercede ritual, for detachment and self-forgiveness to take place, and for a greater balance to be experienced. To actualize this eagerness for a fully lived life in all aspects of self, as you so desire, I do contend that change must happen.

You are well on the way to making changes in your life, My Dear One, and these changes are good examples of connecting with the inner truth of the spirit. If your true spirit is suppressed your true energy for life is also suppressed. If your rituals take over your life, your spirit will remain bound in the repetition of those rituals, unable to free itself from the wheels of life turning endlessly in the same direction. When your spirit comes knocking and throwing wrenches into your wheels, it is time to stop everything and look at how your wheels have been spinning. Have your wheels been free-flying, spinning out of control without stopping, because you fear that if you stop there will be nothing there at all, or perhaps only the skeletal remains of once beautiful wheels of comfort? Are you afraid that you may miss out or be too late for something if you do not keep your wheels spinning at the current pace?

In order to enact change, the wheels must stop. The rituals must be dismantled and examined for truth of need. The ego self must relinquish its desires to the true desires of the inner spirit self, the mature spirit self who, though firmly in adult reality, is also openly trusting of the innocent side of itself as well. It is in combination of true ego self and true spirit self that forgiveness, detachment, and fulfillment of life will happen.

New rituals may seek to inhabit the spaces left by old habits as they are dismantled. In order for true growth to happen these spaces must become spirit-filled energy spaces. As old habits are left behind a period of loneliness and emptiness may ensue, until the ego relinquishes its hold on the desire to replace one ritual with another and instead allows the inner spirit to take over. The balance that you seek, and that every spirit seeks, is awareness of self in constant flux, able to flow through life, fully participating, fully aware, fully alive, fully enjoying and living freely. I do not want to discourage anyone from living and enjoying life, yet do I also not want to stifle the inner spirit’s quest for life as well. How do you give ego self and spirit self equal time and space? How do they sit side by side so that the wheels of ritual and habit turn into wheels of energy? This is the work that must continually be undertaken:

1. Question the validity of the rituals. Are they necessary and truly fulfilling?

2. Stop spinning your wheels and take a look at what they are made of. Perhaps they are not what you thought they were, for they were picked up for usage such a long time ago.

3. Confront the self regarding the changes already enacted and the experiences already granted.

4. Determine, with knowing spirit self and knowing adult ego self, which changes are beneficial and resonant with both and which changes are not even close to fulfillment.

5. Walk in the direction that the signs, the truths, and the experiences in life are pointing you in and follow this new path.

6. The point of self-forgiveness now comes to greet you, as the next step must be detachment from that which no longer nurtures either the spirit self or the ego self. This will be very clear, though it will also be very difficult to process. It will entail the aspects of self that are not only reluctant, but truly afraid. Self-forgiveness is the act of the balanced self giving permission to move on with the changes that may be so painfully proposed and shown. To grant the self permission to move on is the point when the old wheels will be fully seen as no longer adequate.

7. The next step is to hold onto awareness of self in transition, without pulling toward the self new rituals, new wheels, or new comforts. This is a time of tension. To maintain the stability of the self in this time of emptiness is the challenge, for only in holding at bay the old voices and keeping out the old stuff, that will come asking for re-entry, will you be able to fully embrace and enact change. This time of tension-bearing will be a great challenge.

8. This will require learning what it means to truly detach from the world as you know it and turn toward the possibility of a new world, though it may not yet be in sight. This step into the void will be the most difficult, for it will involve learning to trust the inner guidance that may, at times, appear to offer strange or unusual advice. This time of trust, however, will lead to the next step in evolutionary growth, which will be:

9. The acceptance of the self as individual, as wholly self-contained, self-aware, self-sufficient, and trustworthy. This acceptance of self will lead to a new energy. As the old powerhouses of energy no longer function, as emptiness occurs, as the old is no longer invited in to contaminate the self with useless rituals and comforts, a new energy will begin to seep in. This is the energy of spirit in balance with ego and as this energy enters the heart, the mind, the very bloodstream of the body, you will discover that you are different. This moment of awareness of self as different, as changed, as acting now from a new post of command will lead to the ultimate goal and that is:

10. Fulfillment of self in new awareness, innerly connected, outerly connected, energetically connected, and available to truly embrace the life that you are so eager to live.

My Dear One, I see your struggles to embrace the wholeness of self, yet must I caution that to do so too quickly will result in disaster, for only in truly allowing all aspects of self to be present and ready to take the journey will true fulfillment be reached. If even one tiny aspect of the self is not ready to participate there will be difficulty in achieving the proper energy to fully live, as you so desire.

I know this process of balance takes work; it takes slowing down; it takes inner trust, and it takes ego-busting, to a great extent. It takes confronting the sadnesses in life, and the emptiness and loneliness of taking a journey alone for as long as it takes to connect with the true self and truth of the self. But each step of the process of gaining balance is filled with gifts of insight, experience, and energy.

This is quite a subject and quite a question! It is quite a quest, I might add; the quest for fulfillment, for life, for growth, and for completion. I advise, with a final punctuation, that those of you who are so eager to fully embrace life, as this reader is, offer your selves the gift of self-forgiveness, for this is truly at the root of all change and all evolution. For without being able to let go of the old self there will be no ability to find and allow a new self to become real. And this is what you seek, the real self.

Messages from Jeanne

#527 I Am a Being Who is Going to Die

Jeanne Marie Ketchel
Channeled by Jan Ketchel

Dear Jeanne,
Today, I am following up on last week’s message from a reader, as well as the current topic of death as advisor. In a response to Message #523 the following query was posed: “I don’t understand how I can truly live in my energy body when I am in my human form. Do you mean that I must cultivate out of body experiences?”

In general, I would like to ask you to respond to this question regarding establishing a practice of maintaining a balance between our inner spiritual world and energy exploration while we also seek to grow and evolve in this world, taking into consideration the shaman’s statement that Chuck spoke about in his Saturday blog #526: I am a being who is going to die. Can you give us additional guidance regarding this balancing act, in light of this statement of the shamans of Carlos Castaneda’s lineage?

My Dear Ones, in the face of death, would you live your life differently? If you knew, for certain, that you would die tomorrow, would you do, act, say, or accomplish something special? I pose these questions in order to jolt your awareness to the fact that, as the shamans of Chuck’s world do say: I am a being who is going to die. Each day you are, in truth, facing your death, yet do you ask your self the questions that I pose?

If you ask your self the question, “what will I do today as I face my death?” you may discover that you will live your life quite differently. Without awareness of death facing you each day, however, the complacency of everyday life removes the significance and the certainty of death from before your eyes. It is up to each one of you to open your eyes, remove the veils, and speak directly to your own mortality in this manner, each day, in order to more fully live a balanced life of awareness.

If you knew you were going to die tomorrow, would you make amends, take leave of loved ones, and prepare your self for what lies ahead? Or would you refuse to accept the possibility, even though it was so blatantly stated as a certainty? I address the certainty of it, as do the shamans of Chuck’s world. You are a being who is going to die. With that certainty in mind, how do you wish to live your life?

As Jeanne Marie Ketchel, I was given the gift of that certainty and I focused my attention on creating a balance in my life so that I could find enough strength to remain upon that earth, as long as possible, while simultaneously exploring other aspects of energy. I did focus upon the activities of certain death as proposed by the same shamans of Chuck’s world. I did embrace and learn from the wise teachings of many who had gone before, transitioning into energy, learning how to understand the process, with the certainty that I would be facing my death sooner than I would have liked.

In order to maintain a more focused balance in your lives, My Dear Ones, I ask you to pose not only the statement of the shamans to your self each day, but also the questions of how you will live now that you are aware that your own death transition is a certainty. Will you express your love and appreciation in far greater magnitude? Will you look for the beauty that surrounds you and envelopes your being? Will you show your self as fearless, impeccable, and a fighter, while at the same time you face the inevitable with the courage of an ancient one, who knows that death will come when the time is right? Will you seek better understanding of the need to detach and leave that world, while simultaneously seeking awareness in energy form?

Why must you wait for death to come knocking before you mature into such a warrior of life? You see, My Dear Ones, though you may, in fact, live for many years, your life may be richer, happier, more fulfilled, more loving and compassionate if you can hold in your awareness the certainty that your death is imminent. I suggest, as the shamans of Chuck’s world do, that such awareness alone is enough to shift you into better balance. This is the awareness that you seek, My Dear Reader; the perfect awareness to shift you into a being who is going to die, into a being who, by making that statement and keeping it uppermost in your mind, will discover that balance in life, body, and spirit, may be achieved.

To live your life upon that earth constantly preparing for your death, with awareness, is quite a gift. You are offered the opportunity of such a gift without having to deal with the challenges of disease. Or perhaps this may be the catalyst that you do receive, as I did, yet are you also being offered a healing opportunity each day that you remain present in that world. I ask you, My Dear Ones, to live your lives in balance, with this awareness, so that you may have the healing opportunities that will arise from such focus. With awareness that death is present at all times, your life will become a different life.

So, in conclusion, I ask you to allow the awareness of death to be the catalyst that shifts you into the balance that you struggle with. Once you accept death as your daily companion, teacher, and protagonist, so may you allow for it to show you the way to live. For you will, in fact, choose to live differently in the face of your demise. I guarantee you will live differently, even if it is to find your sadness, your connection to that life, and your habitual needs that so deeply seek to show you that they keep you grounded, while your spirit seeks to show you how to lighten your burden, and how to live a compassionate life, as a loving being.

In death do you face eternal life. Are you ready to experience that, even now, as you lift your feet and walk your path? Are you ready to look upon each and every thing in your world for the last time, in full awareness that this may, indeed, be the last time?

This is the lesson of the shamans of Chuck’s world, the wise ones who teach that you are energy now and forever, in life and in death; however, your awareness of this is overshadowed by the veils and structures of that world. Death may remove them and reveal your true potential, but why wait to access that which is innate and eager to partake of life now? Is it not ironic that in facing your death you are offered access to true life, the energy of eternal living?

I contend that in keeping awareness of imminent death in front of you, each day, your balance will naturally establish itself. As you look upon your world, with death at your side, you will almost automatically discover the impeccable warrior you truly are. Your alignment as body and energy will adjust itself, so that your puzzlement in how to become more balanced will resolve, for it is most natural to be balanced.

I am a being who is going to die. Keep your awareness of death at your door and act from this place of imminent demise and transition. Awareness of death is your catalyst to healing and living all of your truths. It is all you need to set you on the path of change and growth as you ask your self to face your truths, each moment of each day, fully aware.

Messages from Jeanne

#525 Death is Your Most Desirable Teacher & Traveling Companion

Jeanne Marie Ketchel
Channeled by Jan Ketchel

Dear Jeanne,
Although I don’t wish to be morbid or focus too much on death, it is interesting that the subject has come up a lot this week. Do you have any final words to impart regarding this transformational energy that seems to, indeed, be quite noticeably present this week?

In energetic terms, I do not regard death as morbid at all, but only as transformational. Death also occurs in small ways, as one travels the path of life, whether it be one of awareness or not. Small transitions of change present one with the lessons that death teaches us all in its great final push of urgency to go for the ultimate transition into pure energy. At that time we are asked to accept the truth of our evolutionary potential and to remain aware of the possibilities ahead.

Look now upon your experiences of death as small awakenings. As with all awakenings the impact will only be truly transitional if you maintain awareness of your experiences and of the progress you have made. These small lessons are good preparation for remembering to hold onto such awareness rather than fall back into the veils of oblivion. If you fall back into the veils you will lose the awareness, forgetting that you have already awoken many times. The slumber of complacency in ordinary life is a deeper sleep than death, for it means many lifetimes in the veils must be spent. Death is the opportunity for new life.

I ask that you hold onto your awareness of death, the companion who walks beside you, a silent enigma, a teacher showing you its transitional potential, pointing out the beauty of its energy. Ask your self now to be aware of the light ahead. Direct your attention, now focused on fear and loss, to the evolutionary potential of the journey that every one of you must one day take. Do not be afraid to begin your preparations for death even as you do the work of awakening the self to the beauty of life. Each day as you do your spiritual work, your awareness training, you are preparing for your death. Though you may feel that you are seeking life and its full potential, so are you training your awareness for this ultimate moment, the test of your awareness to hold on during this time of such consequence.

Understand that the vigor you gain access to during this time of spiritual awakening is the energy you will encounter tenfold (at least) as you transition into your energy body. But will you remember that this is so? Will you understand that you are at the great moment of change, not in a negative place by a very positive one? Each day, as you access your energy and take it back for your own usage, you are experiencing death and the energy gained by leaving your body, incrementally speaking. If you can hold onto the awareness that death is energy, perhaps you will be able to travel forward now, keeping awareness of death as your most desirable companion, rather than the one to be most feared.

Does this help you to accept death as part of your journey? Death is exposure to your full potential. This transitional energy is a gift placed on the altar of life, now, giving offerings of energy and awareness. If you are looking for the greater meaning of your life, look to your death, for that is where you will find it.

Today, My Dear Ones, you may be struck by the sudden impact of death upon your reality in that world, upon that earth, but offer your selves the far greater impact being offered as death knocks on the windows and doors of your earthly form in some manner each day and asks to be let in. It is not offering demise, but it is offering you access to your true energy without having to leave that world.

This is what your awareness training is asking you to acknowledge and accept: that death means gaining full access to your energy, full access to awareness of the interconnectedness of all things, full access to universal knowledge, full access to God-light, God-love, and the ultimate awareness of self as part of this light and love, only fulfilled in energy awareness.

Contemplate your own moment of death. Though it remains far distant, so is it truly evolutionary to prepare for it each day, stealing a little of its energy for usage now. Why wait to gain access to that energy when you can have access to it so easily now, for your greater growth? Simply being aware of death as energy potential sets the intent to remain aware. This is what I ask of you, My Dear Traveling Companions: remain aware of your energy as your spirit continually awakens to its true potential. Do not be afraid to ask for it now, not death but the energy of it. Learn to trust what it shows you as your awareness grows. Allow it to guide you further in your life, remaining open to whatever may lie ahead. Be open to receiving not only energy, but the insights offered. Pay attention to the attachments you are being challenged to relinquish, turning always toward the light. Do not lose sight of the light.

Even in the darkest of times the light shines brightly, beckoning you to notice it shining through the veils, warming you with the energy of true love and compassion. Remain aware.

Messages from Jeanne

#524 Death: The Great Transformational Energy

Jeanne Marie Ketchel
Channeled by Jan Ketchel

Dear Jeanne,
Although the energy of late has been quite flowing and useful I sense an underlying darkness; that death is present as a sudden, abrupt energy, not negative in its darkness, but definitely shifting and jolting. Can you talk about this intuition of the energy? Is this a correct analysis of it?

You must remember, My Dear One, that death is always present. It is always an underlying energy, yet is it also a transformational energy and this is what you are sensing. Although it may jolt and abruptly disrupt the complacency of life, its mission is to serve in an evolutionary capacity.

I know I do not need to remind you that death is ever-present, waiting for the moment of delivery, when the time is right, when the time for your particular transformation arrives. Each one of you must keep in mind, at all times, that death is the ultimate journey and is not to be feared or abhorred. It is to be used now as a learning tool.

If you are to truly embrace your evolutionary journey you must also embrace the moment of your death as your catalyst and your awakening to new life. Life exists beyond the world as you see it and live it. Life exists in energetic form. You will continue on, whether in a reincarnated physical form or in energetic form. You will reside in energetic awareness of the greater self. This is what death offers: awareness of the greater self, the complete self, yet also the self as non-individual, as part of the greater whole, able to continue to experience life though its form may be unusual and sounding, perhaps, far-fetched at this moment, while you are so vibrantly alive and struggling to piece together the meaning of your present existence.

The energy that you sense now, the underlying darkness, is but a reminder to stay anchored in awareness. Do not attach to the dark energy, simply note it; remain aware of it; prepare for its inevitable entry into life in some manner, for it will intrude. But keep in mind that death is the balancer of life. It is the negative of the positive of birth. But do not view it as negative per se. See it as new life and, no matter how quick and abruptly jolting it may be, so must you learn to accept the rightness of it, for death does not come knocking and snatching unless it is the right time. If you can turn and look at it as a most necessary teacher and guide so will you find that your awareness of life itself will shift and change as well.

All life is preparation for the entry through the door that death will one day open and guide you through. Death, the great transformational energy, will show you the direction to take toward the light, ushering you, the aware one, into the light of love. This moment, when you stand before that door, will be your transformational time, the moment of awareness that you now train so hard to develop.

I ask that during this time of awareness of death’s presence, that you offer your selves, My Dear Ones, a seat in the classroom of this energy. Accept your well-placed desk and chair and sit upon your seat with eagerness to learn where this energy is guiding you now, even while you are full of life, for it is constantly guiding you to learn the ways of energetic reality.

This is your true purpose: to learn the meaning of your own energy, to build upon your awareness of energy, and to grasp the true meaning of your evolutionary journey. Do not be afraid to confront this teacher who is knocking at your door asking you to come into the classroom to learn about not death but new life, energy, and how all things are interconnected, necessary, and growth-oriented.

Do not run and hide from your detection of this energy. Your awareness is good. You are being tested as to your latent fears of your own underlying darkness, as yet still unknown. For all of you, no matter how much work you do on the self will continue to have more excavating work to do. Your lives have been long and varied, your experiences many, and your true future is in continual recapitulation and discovery of the self as an energetic entity, much like the illusive death, the energetic entity that is present each day, asking you to be aware that transformation is a certainty. The question it poses is: What will you do at the moment of your own transformation? Will you run and hide from it, full of old fears and projections? Or will you see through those burdens, so unnecessary, to the light ahead? Will you keep your awareness?

I suggest it is a good idea to enter the classroom that is being presented now during this time of energetic flow and shift. The door to this teacher’s room is always open. Haven’t you noticed?

Messages from Jeanne

#523 Find the Door of Silence Within

Jeanne Marie Ketchel
Channeled by Jan Ketchel

Today, a Reader asks a question.

Hi Jan/Jeanne,
I want to write this without over-thinking or worrying but am afraid I’ll be shot down. I want to know about the big picture and the answers to the “whys” and “hows” of our existence. I know that I probably don’t currently have the right mind or frame of reference to comprehend the answers I am seeking and I know I need to look within. I am in a process of making peace with my newfound (or againfound?) awareness that I am energy and that I will continue differently. I am definitely on a path and am awakening. I just need more of a framework for the purpose of it all. Why do I want to evolve, why should I practice being in my energy body?

If energy is neither created nor destroyed how do we exist? If we are everything and God is everything why do we need to learn anything at all, and why can’t we just remain as one awake consciousness? It’s hard to feel, if all we are doing is awakening to what we are and returning to where we came from, that this is all meaningful. And yet, I know it is. Would you tell me about the way things are in terms I might be able to sort of understand? I know when I am confused or suffering it is because of misunderstanding and I need to accept what I don’t know, but you say we should know everything, so I am asking…

Thank you (both).
Anonymous

My Dearest One, you question your very existence and that is exquisite, yet do I hear your frustration, your eagerness, and your desire to hurry up the process of learning the meaning of your life. This is not a process to push forward, but a process to sit back and slowly contemplate. I see by your questions that you may feel you have missed something and you must hurry to catch up, but this is not so.

You awaken when you are ready to awaken no matter what you have been taught or know. None of it will matter in the least until you are ready to accept it. I will address, first, your question of life’s meaning. Why indeed must you exist upon that earth if you already contain all knowledge, if you are energy, and if you are simply returning to awareness of such?

You are energy. You do contain all knowledge. Your awakening, however, is in order to discover this. You will not evolve, you will not complete your lifetimes upon the earth if you do not gain access to what this truly means for you alone. Each one of you, each being upon that earth, has the potential to fully experience life as an energy being, but how many people actually do? Awakening is not, in fact, gaining access to the big picture, as you suggest. Awakening is being able to move far beyond the big picture. The big picture is as much a construct of man’s as the buildings, the roadways, the cities and communities he designs and lays out.

I must say, My Dear, that to have a firm picture of life and its meaning near at hand would be quite limiting and uninviting. The true meaning of life, of existence, is learning to allow the self to truly be aware that there are no limits to the possibilities and the potential of each one of you.

Life is unending. Energy is unlimited in its potential to evolve. The process of evolution is one of awakening to your personal potential, at this time, in this life. The meaning of this life will be revealed as you allow your self to slow down, to temper your pursuit of all things, and to truly discover what it means to be energy. Your own energy is unique to you, and your access to all knowledge will be gained as you learn how to use your own energy.

In order to truly access your own energy, you must learn to trust that everything is possible and that your own process must be discovered, uniquely your own. No other person will have exactly the same process as you will have. No other life will unfold as your life will unfold. No one else will have your experiences, and no one else will learn the lessons that you will learn. Your life is uniquely yours and this is what you must take into your consciousness, into your intelligent questing for meaning. Begin with the true facts of the self. You are unique.

You are comprised of energy, but have you discovered what it feels like to be you in this form, as an energy being? It is time for you to allow your self to accept your self as an energy being, unlike any other, unlike any description or explanation you have heard or read about. It is time to have a true experience of the self as energy so that you may truly own the self as such.

This process does not belong to the bigger picture. Learning to be energy is being able to totally detach from the world as you perceive it, as you have been taught, as you have thought it to be, and to enter a new state of being. But first you must allow the self to accept the experience. You must allow the self to refuse everything you have ever been taught in order to truly be open to the experience.

Many people have experiences of energy, but they refuse to accept them. Many people prefer to put them into a known context, giving them an explanation that will placate their fears of oblivion. In truth, an experience of energy, though it may feel like death itself, is as familiar as your own body, for it is where you come from and where you go as you reincarnate. Your time of awakening is reminding you of this familiar and known aspect of self, and the jolt of fear is the moment of shift when one reality disappears and another appears.

Your existence upon that earth will not become clear, no matter what I say, until you allow your self to truly experience the self as energy. If you can, without attaching to the known familiar world, have an energy experience, in full waking consciousness, you will begin to understand that most of your questions are both meaningless and the most meaningful questions one could ask. Once you allow your self to experience your true uniqueness, as an energy being, you will find that the answers to your questions will become readily available, but you will also discover that there are many more questions that you do not even know yet.

Your awareness is burgeoning now. I see that you are eager and ready to jump into a new life, yet are you preferring to have it fully laid out and explained to you ahead of time, but I am afraid that this is impossible for me to do. You must take the first step alone, My Dear One, as we all must, and learn what it means to be the energy that you truly are.

Why do you want to evolve? I ask the same question of you. I think the answer is because life, as it now presents itself to you, does not offer enough. Life, as you live it, is not exciting enough and it does not fulfill your eager spirit self. Only by allowing the self to accept the uniqueness of the self, in energy, in experience, and in full potential, will you begin to understand what a fulfilling and meaningful life is.

To find your energy: begin to slowly allow your mind to quiet its busy chatter, its questioning pursuits, and find the door of silence within that will lead you directly to the experience of the energy body. Find it, however briefly, a little each day. Go without question or desire. Go simply for the experience. You do not need anything in order to do this; just the self, the calm self, the quiet body and quiet mind self, the inner self, unafraid, asking simply for a glimpse of the energy self.

I may not have answered your many questions because I feel that my answers will not suffice until you allow your self to get to a quiet place of inner calm and experience the self suspended in nothingness, until you see for your self that there is nothing to fear. Once you overcome your fear of nothingness you will be able to move beyond the world that is so neatly constructed around you and into a world of energy, where everything is possible, where everything is meaningful, and where everything is known. And then you will see that there is no way you will want to stay there either, because you will understand that there is so much more beyond that. As you allow your self to have experiences of energy and journey into the unknown, you will discover that there is always a new unknown to discover. To get to the place of evolution is to get to this awareness. There is always a new world to explore, just beyond the one you are in right now.

Good Luck with your explorations into the unknown self. The first door is already slightly ajar. Are you going to shed the old clothes that have been your protection from the unknown and go into it fully unclothed, as pure naked energy? This is what your awakening is asking of you and this is the first question to ask the self: Am I ready? Do I dare let go of everything in order to have a true experience of myself as pure energy?