A Day in a Life: The Power of Thought

One day I mused about how nice it might be to take a vacation from my computer, for even a few days, to take a break from it and all that it affords me, the world at my fingertips, the ability to work on my photography and my writing with ease, to manage our website and put out our blogs. Even with everything it is capable of and all that it funds, I felt how attached I had become to it and momentarily wished it were otherwise. What else would I be doing if I didn’t have my computer? I wondered. What did I do before it became such a big part of my life?

The very next day, as I worked at my computer, the phone rang. I was able to say, “Hello,” and little else as a power outage hit and in an instant both the phone and my computer went dead. And so my wish was granted; my computer and I are on vacation!

It has not really been a fun vacation, not yet anyway. In the beginning my main focus was on diagnosis. Was it just the hard drive? Luckily, I keep a backup drive going continually and I also back up some very important things to the “cloud.” I’ve learned the hard way how necessary backing up is.

Soon I was reading Apple forums and support groups, gathering information, running Disk Utility, partitioning, renaming and restoring, and other things I never thought I’d be able to figure out. My techie guy is unavailable and so I have had to go it alone. I soon arrived at an impasse, so off to the Apple Store for expert help.

I returned from the “Genius” hopeful, my hard drive cleared for data retrieval, and set about restoring my files to my computer hard drive once again, but it soon became clear that something was seriously wrong. It froze. I tried a few other things. It froze. I tried shutting down and rebooting by pressing one key or another, and finally doing a “Soft Boot.” Things would look hopeful and then my computer would freeze again. Alas, more expert help was necessary.

Off to the local Apple experts where my taciturn little MacMini refused to boot up, refused to give anything and then suddenly sprang to life. I saw that my efforts to restore it had indeed been fruitful, but then it froze once again and refused to partake in any further probing. And so I have left it in good hands, its insides to be taken apart and evaluated. Will the diagnosis be fatal?

In the meantime I work on an “old” iPad, the first one that came out, no camera, no ability to upload audio. I find it cumbersome and it doesn’t handle wifi too well either for some reason, cutting out on me often. And so I am in the midst of my vacation from my computer, the vacation that I had so briefly mused about yet did not expect would really happen. But the universe hears everything.

It’s actually been nice to reexperience pre-digital living, to be shut off from so much. I don’t have an iPhone, though I do like having the luxury of my computer, access to everything that it affords, but I also dream of one day disconnecting fully, escaping to a different kind of existence. With the dire state of the evironment, it’s not a bad idea to muse about life post-digital. We’ve come so far, but are we prepared for real life should all of this be taken from us? What’s really important?

Right now, my treasured external backup hard drive that sits on my desk is most important. I guard it with my life. Should anything happen to that, I am done for. I don’t even dare to muse about that!

Be careful what you wish for, the Universe is listening!
Jan

Soulbyte for Friday November 14, 2014

Acknowledge this day as the next step on your journey through this lifetime. Accept where you have been, how far you have come, and all the work you have down to arrive at this day. Let your strengths and your weaknesses balance you as you accept them as your teachers and petty tyrants alike. Remain aware that everything inside you is set up to accompany you on your journey, to provide you with what you need as you travel forward and learn about yourself.

Take some time to bask in the luxury of your life, even as you give yourself to the tasks at hand. Even as you do the work of your life allow the energy of calmness and peacefulness, of enjoyment and cosiness to be provided and engaged in.

You are your own worthy teacher and petty tyrant alike, your own mother and father, your own light and your own shadow. Acknowledge that these are indeed the things you have learned and that they are the substance of who you have worked so hard to become. If life asks anything of you, it is to uphold the truths of who you are every day of your life and without fail to continue seeking the deeper truths of the self.

Soulbyte for Thursday November 13, 2014

Mind what matters most. Focus on the tasks at hand for this day. Allow the honest self to appear and guide you through the day, the truthful self who seeks resolution and clarity in all things. When the mind is boggled step back, take a breath, and ask the honest self to take over.

The mind is full of clutter for the most part. You can clear the clutter by whisking thoughts and cogitations away, by dropping down into the heart of the body and asking for calmness and respite, if only for a moment. In minding what matters most it is not the matters of the mind that are important, but the matters of the heart.

Chuck’s Place: Real Security

Still dealing with computer issues, but here is a blog from Chuck, sans pictures again, but offered with our heartfelt wishes for good journeying through all the changes.

The human animal is acutely aware of great change on the horizon. Such impending change produces a collective fear that emanates from the deepest stratum of our instinctual selves, rising to the surface in our individual experiences as anxiety. We seek to dispel this anxiety by seeking refuge in our ego self, which responds by associating the anxiety with current events as it defensively reasons us to provisional security. This anxiety/fear, however, goes deeper than that, into the very nature of our human animal selves.

The question arises: How do we achieve real security? The truth is that although it is evident that we are in for great planetary change, life is and has always been about great change. All life ends; what greater change could there possibly be?

Real security is not to be found in a respite from change. A respite from change may temporarily be found in the ego’s bag of magical defenses, but such respite is an illusion. In reality change is constant and unrelenting. We might, nonetheless, discover a sense of real security on a warm day at the beach.

The ocean tide is the ultimate expression of unrelenting change. The heartbeat of the earth never ceases in the circulatory system of the ocean’s waves. If we lie calmly at the seashore, we might attune ourselves to the sounds of the true pulse of change. No wave is ever the same. Some waves are calm and smooth, others are crushingly powerful.

If we venture beyond our sandy bed into the ocean waves we experience more directly the energy of change. As the waves approach we might decide to learn to dance with them, timing our moves to leap at just the right moment, barely impacted by the passing waves. If our timing is slightly askew we might find ourselves mercilessly dragged down and under, into sand and swirls, frantically awaiting release that we might breathe again. Most times we are released back into life, returned to the control of our own bodies. Sometimes the ocean claims life, the catalyst to moving into new form.

Perhaps we might decide to align ourselves with the flow of the waves, with the energy of change, as we ride the cresting waves ashore. Sometimes we are fooled or miscalculate and again find ourselves pulled asunder, forced to face the crushing uncertainty of change head on.

Real security, however, is only to be found in facing the inevitability of change by allowing the ego self to learn about its energy, discovering how to ride it successfully by facing the truth of our own lives.

If we can allow ourselves to engage with consciousness in our dreams and bring them to waking life, we enter more deeply into the ocean of our deeper selves.

If we can allow ourselves to fully experience our feelings in the present, and in our deepest memories in recapitulation, we release the energy of stored inner tidal waves and learn to stay afloat through the inevitable storms of our lives.

And yes, if we can allow ourselves to fully reexperience our deepest encounters with terrors that once tore us asunder, we gain the knowledge of holding together through the greatest cataclysms of change.

Real security is to be found in the ability to flow with the changes that life presents us with. To fully become our wholeness we must allow for encounters with, and knowledge of, the parts of ourselves that rock the limited identity our ego has constructed to keep us safe. But let’s not sell the ego short; it is fully capable of the growth to fluidity that is necessary to accept life on its own terms without machinations to make it palatable.

Bring your ego to the beach of your dreams tonight. It’s fine to rest comfortably on the shore and attune to the rhythm of change. The time will come when you are ready, or not, for the deeper plunge into the ocean of pulsing life and constant unrelenting change. Real security is found in flowing with the changes, wherever they take you.

Resting comfortably on the beach, until the next wave comes along,
Chuck

Soulbyte for Wednesday November 12, 2014

Humankind must acknowledge and accept its place in the universe, that it is but a small part of a greater whole. Yet humankind tends to consider itself as the whole around which all else revolves. This is a false notion. To consider all beings, all creatures and all of nature, as equal and equally intelligent is to begin a new adventure upon the earth that now starves and rumbles for attention and intervention. Discontent will increase until humankind reverses its progress and returns to the earth as both source and resource. In this return a new discovery that all beings are equally energetic will complete man’s search for meaning and his downfall will not be one of devastation but one of evolution.

In consideration of nature as a whole, humankind included, the world will adjust properly and all will be well though great damage will occur. As it now stands, the brink has been reached. Tend to the self for all beings so that your personal part in the evolution will have impact. Be considerate, kind and compassionate to self and to all beings that life may evolve.

Chuck Ketchel, LCSWR