As within, so without. As you reflect the brightness of who you truly are notice how the outside world responds. If you are different your experiences will be different too. Allow the hard work of changing the self to be more present in your life. Express who you truly are, even a little bit more each day, and see what happens. Things do not change if you do not change. You have already proven this. Be a little daring; if you change then things outside of you will change too. Prove that.