#352 Your Body is Your Vehicle; Your Energy is Your Reality

Dear Jeanne,
Do you have guidance for us today?

Do you not fathom that the world is not as your eyes perceive it, but as your knowing heart and inner eyes see it? Do you not understand that the things that you wonder about and question regarding the unseen are very legitimate and true queries of what reality is? I know that I present you with many ideas of energy and of how the inner world works, but I also know that these are the things you want validated. So I can attest to the facts of the unseen as being as equally real as the world you live in, that world of touch and taste, and sound and vision. The worlds I speak of, the parallel universes, also have the same senses of taste, smell, sound and vision, touch and feelings to enable you to know the reality of them.

Use now your inner knowing of the validity of your experiences to feed your attempts at gaining clarity. During your recapitulation work you will be confronted with those very real senses, feelings, emotions, and atmospheres of other times, other worlds, other realities. And these are your signs that you are really there, really able to transfer your awareness to other realms. Do not dismiss the reality of your trips into places of old. Learn what you can. Retain your awareness while there, pushing aside fear, the old fear and the new fear to gain a new perspective, even as you retain a foothold in the present.

During recapitulation is it essential that you retain even a thin thread of attachment to your present existence, for that is the thread by which you will return and replant your self back in now as you make your journeys into your jungles of past life and past lives.

You must prepare as an explorer does, understanding that you may encounter the unexpected, but with proper care and preparation may you not be thwarted by what you encounter. To perceive fear while venturing into another world may get you into trouble, for it can capture you in itself, keeping your awareness caught there, rather than allowing your awareness to overcome the fear so that clarity may reign. What I am asking you to do today is to go to battle against your fears. They are your biggest enemies, but also your biggest challenges and teachers as well.

Your fear is pointing out to you where you must recapitulate. So if you have been wondering how to get started on your journey into your self, go to your biggest fear and confront it. Place your self before it with awareness, rather than allowing your self to fall into its waiting arms. If you rush up to it and go right into its embrace as you have done many times so will you but remain caught by it, unable to see it clearly, but comforted in knowing that you are in a familiar place.

I suggest that you stand back and observe what all of your senses, your emotions and your physical body are feeling and doing as you observe your great fear standing before you, looming over you with it fangs dripping and its claws pulling at you. Go to your own body, go inside, and find out what is happening in there, rather than wrap up in the blanket or the net that fear attempts to throw over you.

Question your attachment to your fear. Why do you need it? Why do you resort to it over and over again? Why does it cause such anxiety and restlessness inside you? Allow your inner sensations to respond to you, while your clear head of knowing asks the right questions.

Do not allow the big baby to reach for its usual pacifier. Do not allow the inner you to run and hide either. Do not pull out the tent you carry on your back for protection, or the armor you burden your self with. Instead use your senses, use your clarity, and use the truth of your bodily responses to tell you what is going on.

Be as an explorer, an investigator. Take notes; document your reactions, your attempts to flee, your old habits, as you once again stand before your fears. Study your self. Become a scientist. You are the experiment. That is really all recapitulation is about. You are going on a scientific exploration into the self. As an observer now must you dissect the self and fully understand why you do the things you do, not questioning and answering in the old way, but questioning and answering with the new truthful way.

Question and answer now in your nakedness. Remove your old habits, your padding, your means of protection and avoidance, and present your self to your self now as a purely innocent human being, fallible, imperfect, nakedly present, wanting to really learn about who you are. Your ego is your biggest defense, and this you must learn to shed. It may take some time because an ego is something you have been taught to strengthen, but it is in fact merely blocking you from your truths.

Can you accept the fact that you are a big baby in diapers, who wants to be taken care of, fed, and tended to? Well, if you can allow your self to accept that aspect of the self, then you are well on the way to shedding that tough shell of an ego that you have been polishing and spiffing up all these years.

Remember what I have said about energy? That you are all energy? If you are but comprised of molecules of energy, then what does it matter if you are a big baby? And what does it matter if your ego is overpowering you at every turn? And what does it matter if you can’t find your way? If you can accept that you are nothing more than energy, then can you let go of all the thoughts and ideas of the self you think you must uphold too.

Energy is not simply nothing but molecules though. Once you discover your own energetic sense of self, will you understand that you are comprised of everything. But you can only have access to such knowledge of everything if you have no ego to get in the way. A big ego, including a big baby self, will sabotage your knowing of everything, and it can get you into trouble, inviting in negative aspects of the dark side, and that is not what you are seeking now.

As you work on your self, as you do your recapitulation work, please remember that what you seek is truth of the self. You seek to strip down the untruths and the props that have been so useful during your life in that one world, but are not at all viable in other worlds. You must find your trusting innocent self again, and become armed only with the knowing of what it means to be an energetic being in order to understand and navigate other worlds.

Your recapitulation work will lead you to seeing and believing what you experience as your truths. Your work in other worlds may seem unreal when you step back into your daily life, but know that it is energetically more real than the hand before your face. Use that hand to ground you as you confront your beastly fears. Look at it constantly to ground you in the reality of self, to remind you to stay in your body and to investigate your self as a scientific experiment. Use your body to guide you. For even as you are pure energy, so do you reside in that body for a reason; to learn what it means to be alive, to learn what it means to be energetically present, and to learn what it means to be an energy being capable of being in two worlds at once.

Your body is your vehicle; your energy is your reality. See where the two of them take you next. Stay with them both as they lead you into other worlds, the world of the inner self first, then later, once you have learned how to travel within the self, may you be ready to travel beyond the self.

So work on the aspects of the self that I have laid out today: the ego self and the big baby self. First accept them and understand them, utilizing them to get you where you can access your energy self, your body self, and your knowing self, all of these things based in the truth of the self. Learn who you truly are, letting go of your old ideas, notions, judgments, and captured movies of the self that you play over and over again. Break up and throw away everything you think you are and start over with nothing but your energy self. Then will your recapitulation really start. For the true energy self is fearless, brave, all-knowing, and eager to shift the journey into one of truth and exploration.

I will speak more on this again soon. Time to go now.