The path to enlightenment leads first to the self. The first steps lead inward. The next steps go deeper inward. Beyond that lies the unknown self, the lost self, the forgotten self. This is the self you seek. This is where your spirit lies waiting.
Don’t stop now. To find this self is the most noble and fulfilling of all journeys for it will lead you to greater understanding of all that is; your place in the world will be made clearly available and your spirit will truly live as one with you for the rest of your days.
To live in constant companionship with this spirit self all the time is what you seek. The journey may seem difficult now, but soon light will come. Keep going.